October 25, 3:25 p.m.

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100 days. It has been exactly 100 days since the diagnosis.Today I lost the love of my life, my best friend, my partner, Dani’s daddy, and all semblance of a future I thought I knew. At 3:25 p.m., he took his last breath, and I felt him leave. I, always a skeptic, felt him leave. I feel empty, numb, exhausted, scared, and sorrow. It doesn’t feel real. 100 days.

Previous postings have revealed what we took to be good news—that his tumors had stopped growing. Bryce’s body continued to wither away while his tumors stayed the same. The feeding tube was something we both believed would give him an advantage over melanoma while the tumors had arrested. He started going downhill Wednesday morning, when he woke up and felt very nauseous. He was only semi-conscious all morning, requiring an increase in oxygen and moaning loudly in his sleep. During the afternoon, he threw up partially digested blood all over the place. I knew this was a bad sign, so I got the “crew” together to get Bryce downstairs, and I took him to LDS Hospital E.R. The doctor, Dr. T., decided to admit Bryce for a blood transfusion and medicine tweaking. Bryce threw up in his hospital room and aspirated some into his lungs. He didn’t have the strength to cough it out. Thus began his downward spiral. By noon today, it was apparent that the family should gather.

His last few hours were horrible to watch, as his body began to fail and Bryce didn’t want to quit. Some of his last words were, “We’re killing cancer.” He told me (mouthed to me through the oxygen mask) over and over that he loved me. Then he stopped breathing. I felt him leave. When he was gone, I called the eye bank and offered his eyes for research purposes, since nothing is transplantable due to metastatic cancer. It gives me a measure of purpose knowing that Bryce’s beautiful eyes will help develop new processes to give the gift of sight. I believe in donation, and I am so proud of Bryce.

Bryce’s dad and I will plan the funeral proceedings tomorrow, and I’m fairly certain it will be Tuesday morning in Bountiful, Utah. All are welcome to attend, and Bryce will be there also. I’ll post the details tomorrow after the plans are finalized.

I can’t even imagine that my Bryce is gone—it’s too hard and too painful to believe. As I lie here in my parents’ home, I hear the deafening silence which seems even more surreal. No oxygen machines, no heavy breaths, no Brycey. I am alone and I am so sad. Keep our families in your prayers.

Oh, my sweet Bryce…We’re Killing Cancer. Forever.

164 Comments So Far!

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 12:17 AM
Brent said:

My heart sanked for you tonight when I got the news. You have a lot ahead of you and your a strong person. If you ever need anything or or just need some company, my door is always
open for you. I am so sorry.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 12:19 AM
Kathie said:

Dearest Tammy,
My heart aches for you and I am in tears as I type this. I can't imagine what you are feeling right now or what you will feel in the days to come. All I can tell you is that your Bryce's life had a huge impact in this world and he will not be forgotten. Even though I never had the pleasure of meeting him, I've felt as if I got to know him these past few months through your postings. His love of his family, his strength, his faith, his sense of humor, his goofiness, and his never-ending love for you and his beautiful daughter were so evident not only in what you wrote about him but also in the photos that were taken of all of you together. Because of Bryce people from all over were made aware of the horrible disease of melanoma and through that awareness maybe a cure will be found. What a legacy that would be. In the meantime, Bryce's legacy is in your beautiful daughter Dani who will grow up to know how much her daddy loved and treasured her. I will keep all of you in my heart forever and I'll never forget how hard one man fought to stay with the family he loved so much. My tears fall tonight for you and your families.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 12:45 AM
Susie said:

Tammy and sweet Dani,
Our deepest sympathies.
We love you guys and the loving example that you and dear sweet Bryce have given us!
We are better people for having had the opportunity to know you.
Thank you for sharing your lives with us!
Susie D and Family

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 12:47 AM
Lynn said:

We have never met and even if we had no words could begin to console you at this time. You and Dani will have a truly remarkable guardian angel.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 1:18 AM
Mikey said:

Tammy,

Words can't express the feelings in my heart. Bryce was among the best men I knew. He was a noble warrior and I love that he treated you right. He fought hard and surpassed all expectations. What an incredible man. I am saddened at his passing but proud to have known him and am a better person because of his influence. He will not be forgotten. Many men worry about what kind of legacy they will leave behind. Rest assured that his will be an incredible one.

I know the pains of losing a loved one, but not on the scale that you are experiencing. I had a dream once that Teri had passed away and I was alone. It was such a horrible experience. I woke up sobbing uncontrollably and when Teri , alarmed, inquired what the matter was, all I could do was hold her and cry. Fortunately for me it was only a dream. I am so sorry that you have to live it.

I pray that you will know that although you feel alone, you are not. You have an incredible number of friends and family who are there for you. You have a beautiful little girl with which to share your pains and joys as she is in the same boat you are, but most of all I pray that you can feel the Savior's loving arms around you. I pray that you will feel his love and take strength from it. He knows understands the pain and anguish you feel and he will always be there for you. I pray that your testimony of our Heavenly Father's plan will strengthen through this ordeal and that you will emerge stronger than before. You always do. That's one of the many things I like about you. You will perservere. Whenever you need a shoulder to cry on or someone to talk to, I hope I might be considered for the job.

Danika,

I am so sorry for your loss. It deosn't seem fair that you only got to be with your Daddy for such a short time. I pray that as you grow older and as life goes on that you never forget the image of his face, the sound of his laugh, and the feel of his loving touch. You are his pride and joy and he will always be with you. He will be proud of you no matter what you do. He is an incredible man. I pray that you also may feel the love of our Lord and Savior. I pray that you may be a pillar of strength at your young age and a support to your dear mother.

To everyone else,

Thank you so much for the love nd suppport that you have shown to my friends. I can't think of better, more deserving people. I pray that you all may remember how Bryce has touched your life and try to be better people because of him.

Bryce,

You are an awesome example of how to be. Strong, Courageous, Tender, Compassionate, Bold, Funny, Righteous. The list could go on forever. I thank you for your influence on me adn for giving me the opportunity to know you. You fought one heck of a fight. And you did it with style and tenacity. You fought with the true honor of a warrior. Until we meet again my friend....

Mikey

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 1:29 AM
Liz said:

Oh Tammy,
My heart aches for you, and my tears will not stop. You two fought with such courage and passion. Bryce did kill cancer; he is now free from the horrendous beast. He is your angel, watching down on you.

I am praying for you, and I share your pain and sorrow.

Love,
Liz Wife of Mike (from MPIP)

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 1:48 AM
Hayde said:

I will lift you in my prayers tonight.
There is so much light tonight from the brilliance of the moon, it's supposed to be the brightest moonlight of the autumn season, I don't think it's coincedental...
Angels are with you attending you at every turn, as they were while you carefully, and beautifully took care of your sweet husband, and baby. I hope that you will feel them all around you and that peace and comfort are yours forever.

AH Alba

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 2:30 AM
Terry Hoelle said:

To everyone in Bryce's family:
All of us at Structural Concepts want you to know you are in our thoughts and prayers. Bryce was a wonderful person and we grieve the lost of a great friend and business partner.
Our sincere sympathy,
Terry A. Hoelle

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 2:47 AM
Jenny (Mc) Baird said:

Oh Tammy, I am so very sorry!! I feel like I've really known you and Bryce but it has only been thru your journal, and what Sally had shared with me. Even so, I am at a loss for I know that nothing I could write now could come close to comforting you. Please know how grateful I am to you and your family for this journal, you have given so many people a gift by sharing your story. Your warnings of tanning and tanning beds and how very important family really is!You did Bryce proud and what a lucky man he was to have you, with all your strength and abounding love, for his wife! And to little Dani, I am sorry that your daddy had to go away! One day when you read this you will know how very much he loved you and how hard he fought for each additional day to spend with you and your mommy. He was a strong and very determined man. He wanted so much to be your dad and was so blessed to have you, even though his time was short his love was not and his fight was not! May God bless you both and help you through this extremely difficult time. May your family and friends be a comfort to you.
Again Tammy, your strength thru all of this has been so inspiring. Seeing your photos from your engagement on showed us how blessed you both were to have found eachother. Your love so apparent and your lives up until 100 days ago, so happy. I am sorry that your Bryce could'nt have been that 1% that we all had prayed for and I'm so sorry that you lost the love of your life and Dani's daddy but hopefully, one day there will be a cure for this devastating slug! That by sharing you and Bryce's journey that people will get checked earlier now then they might have if they had'nt known you or heard your story. I pray for that. I pray for you and your whole family, all the people that loved Bryce and love you.I hope you can find some peace in knowing that you could'nt have done any more than you did, you both fought and fought hard as long as you could and thats all any of could have done. You fought a good fight! You will continue in my prayers, Jenny

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 3:08 AM
Anna said:

I'm so sorry for you and you're family.

I've been following your fight every day - and Tammy: you are a dream of a caregiver! You are not alone - there's a whole world following you, Bryce and Dani. May Bryce rest in peace, and all the best for you and your family.

Anna, Norway

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 3:32 AM
Leslie said:

Oh Tammy, I am so sorry. I am so saddened by the loss of Bryce. I don't even really know what to say except that you guys have been such an inspiration to me. I wish you healing and the ability to accept your loss. I am so sorry.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 4:33 AM
Michelle said:

Tammy:

I heard the sad news yesterday. I am so sorry for your loss. Dani and you are in my thoughts & prayers. I will miss Bryce very, very much.

Your neighbor and friend,
Michelle

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 4:40 AM
Marianne (Denmark) said:

I am sitting here with tears in my eyes. Have been reading you blog regarly, and I really thought he would make it through. I am sending you a lot of thoughts and warm feelings from me to you & your daughter...

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 4:59 AM
Becky from MN said:

Tammy -

My heart is with you in this time of loss. I am saddened by the news and am holding you up in prayer.

You have my phone numbers. PLEASE call whenever you need to ~ talk, vent, scream, cry.

In the meantime, may you find strength, peace, and comfort in God's arms.

Becky from MN, wife of melanoma angel Brad 5-12-07

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 5:25 AM
Tara said:

Tammy,
Your family will continue to be in my prayers as you mourn and celebrate the life of Bryce. I am saddened beyond measure for your loss. I only hope that you can find peace in knowing all the good that you and Bryce have done and are continuing to do through such unselfish things like donating Bryce's eyes. You will see Bryce live through Dani now; that along with your memories will get you through the difficult days ahead.
Hang in there, girl!

Godspeed...

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 5:45 AM
Carver said:

Dear Tammy,

I am so sorry for your loss. Bryce fought so hard with you by his side every step of the way. You both fought a valiant battle and I am deeply sorry. You and your child and family will be very much in my thoughts. As ever, Carver (from MPIP)

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 5:50 AM
Drew said:

I am so sorry to hear that Bryce is gone. It is a shame to lose such a fine person to such a horrible disease. Bryce has gone through so much in his life. You have my familys deepest sympathy and respect for all you did to help him!! Bryce couldn't have asked for a better wife and family! God bless you all

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 5:52 AM
aimee said:

Tammy,

My heart aches for you and Dani. The loss of such a great man like Bryce must be so difficult.

Plain and simple--Cancer sucks! On my Oral Cancer Foundation message board there is a woman who posts regularly who had lost her husband. Her signature line states that "We lost the battle, but not the will to fight this disease." I know that you will always be a melanoma warrior, fighting to inform people about the risk factors and trying to keep even just one person from going through what you and Bryce did.

Lean on your Heavenly Father right now as well as those others who care so much about you. You'll be in my prayers.

--Aimee

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 6:15 AM
Niki said:

Oh Tammy, my heart breaks for you. I learned last night of Bryce's passing on MPIP--and I have been praying for you, for Dani, and for your families. I pray that God will comfort you and give you the strength that you will need to get through these difficult days. I am so sorry for your loss.
Niki

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 6:28 AM
Judy (Nancy's Sister from MPIP) said:

I had not checked in with you in awhile but yesterday, I kept having this feeling that I needed to post something to you guys on Bryce's blog. Some encouragement or something. I kept thinking about Bryce all day at work and I wasn't sure why and when I got home I posted to the blog.

Then this morning, something told me to go to MPIP and check out the board to make sure everyone there was alright. I thought about posting something about my sister, an update or something, but when I got there I was so upset to see that something had happened. I just knew that Bryce must be gone.

So, even though I didn't know Bryce personally, I sit here crying along with you. I am crying for your loss, for your family's loss, for your friend's loss, for Dani's loss and for the loss that all those whose loved ones have to succumbed to this horrible disease. The only one that I am not crying for is Bryce. He is no longer suffering and he was taken according to God's plan. It's hard to imagine that it was only 100 days since you found out. I just don't know what to say other than I am so, so sorry. One thing that I do know is that Bryce lives on.

"Be faithful unto death, and I will give you the crown of life." Revelations 2:10

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 6:39 AM
Mr. And Mrs. Hicks said:

GOD ONLY TAKES THE BEST
~~~~~~~~~~

God saw you getting tired

and a cure was not meant to be,

So he put his arms around you

and whispered "Come to Me".

With tearful eyes we watched you,

as we saw you pass away.

Although we loved you deeply,

we could not make you stay.

Your Golden Heart stopped beating,

hard working hands at rest.

God broke our hearts to prove to us,

He only takes the best.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 6:39 AM
AP in PA -MPIP Board said:

Oh Tammy I am oh so very sorry for your loss, these are the hardest days, I pray for strenght for you. I do know how hard it is I lost the love of my life on May 14th from this horrible beast melanoma. there are no words.......

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 6:45 AM
Kendra said:

Tammy - What can a person say...
My thoughts and prayers are with you at this time of loneliness and despair. I have put your name on the prayer role at the Palmyra New York temple. I pray for the comfort of Heavenly Father's spirit to be with you as you transition into a new life experience.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 6:53 AM
Dave-TN said:


Words fail me. Tammy, after reading your post, all I can think of is how sad I am to hear of your loss and of Bryce’s suffering. Your courage is remarkable.

MM is very cruel. But, one day we will defeat it.

Sincerely,
Dave-TN

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 6:57 AM
Paula Piper said:

Oh Tammy I am so sorry for your loss. I read every post and prayed daily that things would improve. I know it doesn't help, but know that he is in a better place. Some people go their whole lives never knowing a love like yours.
My heart goes out to you and your families. I will hold you close in my thoughts and prayers, especially for the strength to get through the next few days and months.

God Bless you all.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 6:57 AM
Beth P. said:

I LOVE YOU my dear sweet Tammy! I LOVE YOU!!!

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 7:14 AM
Debbie said:

I was so sorry to see this news. I am Julie's aunt. It was hard to read what Bryce went through.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 7:17 AM
Tadd Peterson said:

Tammy,

What a miracle this has all been.

You are an amazing person and so is Bryce. I promise that he continues to live after death--I know this beyond any doubt!! He is, and will be, watching over you and Dani, especially during these next weeks. He loves you, you two have a special relationship. Your Father in Heaven, and your elder brother Jesus Christ love you beyond our comprehension, they will give you strength and comfort to endure and overcome through your tremenedous faith.

Please know that you and Dani are in our prayers and thoughts, as you have been for months now. Beth loves you. Please let us know if there is anything we can do to help--at any time.

Love,
Tadd

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 7:20 AM
Davis Smith said:

Tammy,
When Quinton told me the news yesterday my heart instantly broke for you, for your family and for your beautiful daughter. All I could think about was how normal my night was, and how yours was most likely the worst night of your life. It just doesn't seem fair to me. I know there is absolutely nothing I can say to take your hurt away or even ease the pain. Bryce was very obviously one amazing human being and so are you. I hope that you find peace and true comfort during this time as I know our Heavenly Father and Bryce both have their arms around you. Thank you for being such an inspiration to so many people. Thank you Bryce for fighting so hard.

Love Davis. xo

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 7:26 AM
Elder & Sister Clark said:

Tammy and all who love Bryce,
We're so sorry to read about your sweetheart.
These 100 days must seem so long now, but relatively short. The love that you two have will last forever. Wish we could send you hugs. You and your family are in our prayers.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 7:34 AM
Sherron said:

Tammy, I am so sorry for your loss and Dani's loss. I have been reading your blog for sometime. I also to the MPIP BB all the time.

May God bless you and your family and heal your heart as only HE can. Bryce will always be with you.

Take care,

sherron, wife to Jim

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 7:42 AM
anonymous said:

Tammy and Family,

I don't know what to say, but feel I should say something. I am sooooooo sorry for your loss. May God comfort and strengthen all of you. Thank you for sharing your lives with all of us. Please continue to let us know how you are, when you can, so that we can pray for you.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 7:45 AM
Jer said:

I'm so sorry Tammy.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 8:01 AM
Christy said:

Sweet Tammy and Dani. Words cannot express the sorrow in my heart. Bryce will live on forever. He has found his way into countless hearts.

I'm also thinking about Bryce's parents and siblings. My condolences and heartfelt wishes and sympathy for them.

I'm so sorry.

All my love,
Christy

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 8:03 AM
Dave said:

Dear Tammy-

I am so very sorry for your loss. I am sorry for everybody's loss. Bryce and you are true heros. You are killing cancer. Think of how many lives you have touched, and how many people you have changed.... even people who you never even met in person. You both made your mark on everyone who reads this and meets you. They/We are all better people inside and out. You fought more than the cancer that is the physical disease... you also fought the cancer that prevents people from being the best they can to each other. What you have done and the strength you showed throughout this is truly amazing.

Dani will grow up and be proud of her parents for never giving up. You both have already taught her so much.

Carrie and I send our love and our prayers. I will see you soon. If you need anything at all, please let us know. We love you, Bryce, and Dani very very much.

-Dave and Carrie

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 8:04 AM
Liz Miles said:

Tammy,
I have followed Bryce's story on your website since I found the link on the MPIP. Bryce was definitely a warrior to be admired.

My prayers are with you, Dani, and your family as you go through this most difficult time in your life. May God bring you peace, comfort, and strength.

Liz (Mom to Michael, 17 yr old Melanoma Angel)

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 8:08 AM
Jami Allmendinger said:

Our thoughts and prayers continue to be with you. So sorry for your loss. I hope you can take some comfort in the knowledge that you have helped many many people to pay more attention to the way they treat their own families and for the example you have been in this difficult test you've been forced to take. Hold on to that little girl of yours and you will make it through this test too.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 8:08 AM
Isaac & Sara said:

Tammy, Words cannot express how we are feeling right now. Isaac and I are so blessed to have been a part of Bryce's life, if only for a short time. We love you and wish we could be there to wrap our arms around you. Please know that we, along with all of the Saints in the East, are praying for you, Dani, and your entire family at this time.
Love, Isaac & Sara

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 8:09 AM
Jessi Stringham said:

This broke my heart to read this. I am so very sorry for your loss. (((HUGS)))

Email me today if I can do any enlargements for the funeral.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 8:15 AM
TammyJ said:

I couldn't believe it when I saw your post. My heart is breaking for you and your family. Through God's love and mercy, I pray that you find strength and understanding and may he mend your broken heart!! God Be with you!!!

TammyJ from MPIP

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 8:18 AM
Jacob and Morgan said:

Tammy, You and Bryce have been and will continue to be great examples to all of us. We are sorry to hear that Bryce has moved on, but he is probably hard at work on the other side loving you and Dani more and more. We love you and offer our condolences - our hearts go out to you and all of your family. Stay strong.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 8:19 AM
angie said:

Tammy & Dani, I am praying for you. We have never met, but I feel I know you through your readings. I found you through my sister Julie's blog. I feel the pain you have experienced in the last 100 days; the high's, the lows, the "maybe this isn't happenings," etc.

What gets me through is to stop and say a prayer. I pray for the moment. For God to give me the strength to get through the moment. And five minutes later, if I need to, I pray again for the moment.

Prayers from Texas Daily,
Angie

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 8:21 AM
Katie Higbee said:

We will always pray for you, and always remember the way you ALL touched so many lives. In 100 days Bryce touched and turned so many people toward our Heavenly Father. Imagine what he can do on the other side now. What an example. Always in our prayers, always in our hearts.

Katie and Josh

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 8:30 AM
Aunt Barbara Stevens said:

Dearest Tammy, Dani and family,
It is hard to put into words how I feel right now. I just wish I could hold you and give you comfort. You have fought a valiant fight, and I know it will be your life's work to continue in the search for a cure. Bryce will be missed, as is evident from all the bloggers. Thank you so much for keeping us so well informed. You have done such good work in helping us all to value the relationships we have and to improve our lives. I so wish I could be there for the funeral. I know it will be a wonderful celebration of the life Bryce lived and the love you shared. My prayers will continue to be with you. You are such a great lady, Tammy! I love you so much. Love, your Aunt Barbara

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 8:32 AM
SML said:

I'm so very sorry for your loss. You fought a very noble and worthy fight. I'm so completely sorry, and hope you will have the strength you need in the days ahead.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 8:41 AM
Kara said:

Tammy
You don't know me but I have been following your blog and I just wanted to express my deepest sympathy.

Kara

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 8:45 AM
Maureen (from MPIP) said:

Tammy,
I have followed your blog for awhile. I sit in tears here at the Mayo CLinic with my husband Geoff, who is starting a new treatment today. I am at a loss for words.
I can only say my heart goes out to you. I know you have wonderful memories that will carry you through this horrible time, and you have Dani. Bryce is free of melamona, needles, pain, test and the fight. I wish you peace, especially in the following days and forever.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 8:45 AM
Jamie said:

Oh Tammy, I am so terribly sorry for your loss. You fought so hard and I know Bryce is so proud of you for all you did for him. You are an amazing, wonderful woman. You have touched my life forever in ways that you will never know. You, Dani, your family, Bryce's family and all who knew and love him will continue to be in my prayers. Jamie

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 8:48 AM
Susan Woods said:

Tammy and Family
It broke my heart to hear that Bryce had past on!! I am so sorry...He fought so hard and you were so strong for him and everyone else during his fight to beat Melasuckanoma! It has been almost 2 years since I lost my father to cancer. Tammy just remeber Bryce loved his family so much and appreciated all you did for him the comfort and the care you gave him let him have more time with his family and friends.Your all in my thoughts and prayers.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 8:48 AM
Bishop B said:

Tammy,

Let me add my love to the outpouring from the four corners of the world. I feel blessed and honored that you and Bryce have allowed me to be part of your lives. There is something I think you should know. At the end I felt and recognized a distinct spirit in the room. There was an extra measure of strength being given to those who needed it, comfort to those in pain and the gentle sure reassurance that at the appointed hour there would be a reuniting. This transition was attended by messengers from the father. I know that to be true. Your remarkable love for your husband was evident and will stand as an example to me throughout the eternities. I am proud to be counted among those who know and love Bryce and Tami Brown.

Bishop B.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 8:55 AM
Sandra said:

Bryce's entire family...I just wanted to express my sympathy to you all. You are all in my thoughts.

Sandra

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 8:58 AM
Rolayne and Kent said:

Tammy,
We love you! We are sad to hear about the great loss, but we are grateful that you have felt the love and strength of so many people. You are not alone. Bryce will always be with you in many ways. We will be there whenever you have the funeral and after that.
Love,
Rolayne and Kent

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 9:00 AM
Lisa said:

I'm so, so sorry Tammy. I've followed your and Bryce's journey via the MPIP, and my heart breaks for you and your beautiful Dani and all of Bryce's family and friends. Bryce was such a warrior, now he is at peace. Prayers to you all during the difficult days to come.

~Lisa~ (BarbieGirl on MPIP)

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 9:08 AM
Karis Morrow said:

Tammy and Dani,
Hugs from a distance to you this day. I am so sorry for your loss. I know it is hard, but I hope you can take comfort in knowing that Bryce is free of the beast now and is back in the loving arms of his most loving Lord and Savior. No machines, no weakness, no nausea, no pain. I will continue to pray for emotional healing for you and your family and for strength to care for Dani and pass on to her the love her daddy has for her.
Karis

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 9:10 AM
Laurie Frey said:

Tammy,

Your link was forwarded to me and I can hardly contain my grief for a beautiful man whom I've never met. You so eloquently have conveyed Bryce...the father, the husband, the son, the man. My heart aches with sadness for you and your family. You will surely feel this loss forever, but hopefully with time you will also feel him with you. You said you could feel him leave you...but that doesn't mean he has left your heart. You carry him with you everywhere, every day, every minute. If you close your eyes and listen with your heart, you will hear him! Dani carries him with her too, and with your help she will know that he is watching over the two of you.

As you move through this new journey of grief, remember to be kind to yourself and know that you are loved. The postings here are proof, and Bryce continues to love you too.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 9:14 AM
Starla said:

I have been following your blog for a while and my heart goes out to you and your sweet little girl as you begin this new journey without him. I was touched by all your words and truly feel your strength is a gift that helped Bryce in his fight against this horrid disease. The legacy of strength and love will be a comfort to you and your daughter in the days that lie ahead. My prayers are with you and may God bless you in what lies ahead.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 9:15 AM
Dan & Jaclyn England said:

Tammy, Danika, Jeen, Roger, Jenni, Brady & Family

Words cannot describe how sorry we are for your loss. Bryce was one of the most incredible people to ever walk this earth and the world is a little sadder today because he isn’t here to brighten it up. However, Bryce leaves behind an incredible legacy of love, strength, overcoming challenges, beating the odds and being a good friend. We are better people for having known him as are thousands of others whose lives he has touched. Thank you for a sharing with us these past few months all that you have dealt with. Thank you for teaching us so many valuable lessons and helping us to remember to appreciate the little things is life. Every one of you is in our prayers and heart. Bryce is now free from all of the struggles we face here on earth. He passed his test with flying colors and is receiving his eternal glory. He is with so many loved ones that have gone before him and I am sure he received a hero’s welcome home. For he was a VALIANT fighter. May the Lord bless you with His peace and love.

Love,

Dan & Jaclyn England

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 9:18 AM
Anonymous said:

Beautiful Brown Family,

Tammy, I wish I could hug you so badly. I know we do not know each other, but I truly wish I could! My heart is full of deepest sympathy. I am also grateful that you chose to share this experience with everyone. You have no idea how many lives you have changed, in so many ways. We all love you, prayers from around the world are with you. YOU ARE NOT ALONE! The Lord is with you more now then ever, and Bryce will ALWAYS be by your side. Bryce is finally at peace, he no longer has the weight of his body holding him down. He is with you, and watching over you and your beautiful baby girl. Death is not everlasting, but families are. Be strong, and keep the faith. The Lord will CARRY you through. We love you. Read the talk at the link below. It is beautiful.

http://lds.org/portal/site/LDSOrg/menuitem.b12f9d18fae655bb69095bd3e44916a0/?vgnextoid=f318118dd536c010Vgn
VCM1000004d82620aRCRD&locale=0&sourceId=0af888f17feae010VgnVCM100000
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Stephen and Brittani Martin

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 9:22 AM
Susan Knight said:

Tammy:
I want you to know how very sorry I am for losing the love of your life & the father of your precious child. As a mother of 4, if I could put my arms around you, take the pain away & make it all better I would. My heart aches for the suffering that Bryce, you, Dani, and the whole family have all had to go through for these many days. You are such a special child of our Heavenly Father who has grown into an awesomely strong woman. I just want you to know that your family has been in my thoughts and prayers at all times & will continue to be. If there is anything that I can do or anything you need please let me know.

Love ya,
Susan Knight

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 9:22 AM
Roger Brown said:

I have had several people ask me where Bryce, Tammy, and their families have found the additional strength to cope with Bryce’s cancer and ultimate passing. Mormons may seem somewhat peculiar to those not familiar with what believe, so I want to share what we believe with you. These beliefs are the source of strength for our families.

THE ARTICLES OF FAITH OF THE CHURCH OF JESUS CHRIST OF LATTER-DAY SAINTS History of the Church, Vol. 4, pp. 535-541

Article of Faith 1 We believe in God, the Eternal Father, and in His Son, Jesus Christ, and in the Holy Ghost.

Article of Faith 2 We believe that men will be punished for their own sins, and not for Adam's transgression.

Article of Faith 3 We believe that through the Atonement of Christ, all mankind may be saved, by obedience to the laws and ordinances of the Gospel.

Article of Faith 4 We believe that the first principles and ordinances of the Gospel are: first, Faith in the Lord Jesus Christ; second, Repentance; third, Baptism by immersion for the remission of sins; fourth, Laying on of hands for the gift of the Holy Ghost.

Article of Faith 5 We believe that a man must be called of God, by prophecy, and by the laying on of hands by those who are in authority, to preach the Gospel and administer in the ordinances thereof.

Article of Faith 7 We believe in the gift of tongues, prophecy, revelation, visions, healing, interpretation of tongues, and so forth.

Article of Faith 8 We believe the Bible to be the word of God as far as it is translated correctly; we also believe the Book of Mormon to be the word of God.

Article of Faith 9 We believe all that God has revealed, all that He does now reveal, and we believe that He will yet reveal many great and important things pertaining to the Kingdom of God.

Article of Faith 10 We believe in the literal gathering of Israel and in the restoration of the Ten Tribes; that Zion (the New Jerusalem) will be built upon the American continent; that Christ will reign personally upon the earth; and, that the earth will be renewed and receive its paradisiacal glory.

Article of Faith 11 We claim the privilege of worshiping Almighty God according to the dictates of our own conscience, and allow all men the same privilege, let them worship how, where, or what they may.

Article of Faith 12 We believe in being subject to kings, presidents, rulers, and magistrates, in obeying, honoring, and sustaining the law.

Article of Faith 13 We believe in being honest, true, chaste, benevolent, virtuous, and in doing good to all men; indeed, we may say that we follow the admonition of Paul—We believe all things, we hope all things, we have endured many things, and hope to be able to endure If there is anything virtuous, lovely, or of good report or praiseworthy, we seek after these things.

JOSEPH SMITH.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 9:31 AM
Angela Safferwich said:

Dear Tammy & Family:

I don't know any of you, but have been following this journey with you.

I am so, so sad and feel like I have lost a friend. Please be strong and I pray for you and your loved ones!

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 9:34 AM
Jen said:

Thank you for sharing your story. Although I've never met your family I feel like I know you. I was very emotional reading this post and my four year old asked why I was sad so I explained cancer to him. He asked if Bryce was my friend and I said I'd never even met him, but yes he is my friend and now he is an angel to his family. I will hold those close to me a little tighter today. Thank you for sharing your story for all to read.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 9:39 AM
Sally McWain said:

Tammy, I just read your post and I wish my arms were long enough to reach back home to you. Please know my heart is with you right now. I hoped I would never have to read this news, but as we've learned, you and I, we're not in charge. I love Tadd's comments about Heavenly Father and Jesus being with you and I can say along with Tadd that I KNOW they will be right there by your side all the way, as will Bryce for a time. While we were waiting for Gordon to go in for his surgery, I reached over and took his hand and said "This is the first day of the rest of our lives...you're going to feel better and we're going to start living!!!". Well, there was a different plan in store for us that I was not aware of. This, my dear sweet Tammy is the first day of the rest of your life...and today I'm imaging that you're thinking that you don't want a life without Bryce. Somedays I still feel that way...but that's not what they would want for us. I can imagine those two strong doorways shaking hands and discussing hospital war stories!!!! He's not far away Tammy and he loves you still... He just has a different work to do now. I wish I could say this will be easy...but it won't!! But you're strong, courageous, brave and you'll get through it after much time, prayer and grief.
I love you my sweet friend. I'm coming home Saturday night and hope to see you soon. Until then, pray for comfort and peace, and I will pray for you as well. Get a blessing...you'll make it through!!
Love, Sally

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 9:48 AM
Kathleen Cozad said:

Tammy~
I wish I could hug you and cry with you...and hold Dani with you. The outpouring of love and sadness through this blog is being felt by countless many. We have all learned more about love and WHAT TRULY MATTERS in this life by the very private struggles you have been so selflessly willing to share with all of us. I hope you can find comfort and yet even MORE STRENGTH in the next few days as you put together what I know will be an amazing service- a reminder of the sweet and perfect plan of salvation that our Father has laid out for us, and a tribute to your sweet husband Bryce. I love you and I'm so glad I was able to come spend time with you and Bryce just 3 weeks ago.
Love,
Kathleen

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 9:50 AM
Patti said:

I am so sorry for your loss. I have been following your posts for months now. I am so sad for you and your beautiful daughter. Your daughter is so blessed to have such a strong wonderful mother. You are an amazing, beautiful daughter of God. The strength that you have shown through this heartbreaking time is truly amazing. You are an inspiration to so many and have touched so many lives. Your words have made me look at my life and embrace the things that are truly important.

I was looking through your family pictures again this morning and you are so fortunate to have had them taken. The love your husband has for both you and your daughter is so evident in those pictures, it brings tears to my eyes. They are pictures of what true, eternal love looks like.
Our family is praying for you.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 9:51 AM
Chris and Andrea said:

God be with you until you meet again! Stay strong and he will comfort you.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 9:56 AM
Cassie Briggs said:

Tammy and family,

My heart hit the floor yesterday after Jeff received your email on his Blackberry. I hurt for you and your family so much right now and I can't even begin to understand what you must be going through. I wish I could give you th biggest hug right now, but I know that you have a tremondous support system around now and they will never leave you. And that includes us even though we are so far away. If you ever need someone to talk to day or night you know you can count on Jeff or I.
I am truly honored to have known Bryce and to see how much he loves you and Dani. That love will go on forever. Take solace in knowing that a piece of him is with you everyday in your heart and in Dani. I know he is watching over you both. He was a beautiful example of how a man should live his life and love his family and I am so thankful I was able to witness that and learn from it. There is no doubt in my mind he is with his Heavenly Father. You all are in our thoughts and prayers. We love you!

Love,
Jeff, Cassie, Ayanna and Celeste

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 9:59 AM
Ben and Shaunelle said:

Tammy,

We are so sorry that we did not get to know Bryce as well as we would have liked. We love what we know of him, though. Ben always said they (he and Bryce) were kindred spirits because they were both always hot, and Bryce was not afraid to say it, either! We both loved his sense of humor. Whenever he walked into a room, it just seemed to get happier and brighter. Never a dull moment with Bryce. He knew how to bring people together, and he always made people feel included and important. He will be missed tremendously. Don't ever let Dani forget how hard he fought to stay with her, or how much he loved her, or how incredible he was!
We love you and mourn with you.

Ben and Shaunelle Trenholm

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 10:02 AM
Nate said:

Bryce was a unique soul and the world is diminished by his absence. I am proud to have known him, and you. I've said on many occasions that there was no dignity in death. You have taught me otherwise.


Nate

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 10:06 AM
Sondra Cornia said:

Tammy:

The Lord is watching over you. He sees your sorrow and pain and if given the chance, He will comfort you. My heart aches for your loss.

I am a better person for having known Bryce. He was a kind and gentle person.

He is free and with his loved ones who have passed on, and I believe he is joyously preparing for the time you will be reunited.

You could see the love he had for you and Dani, for it shone from his eyes; it was radiant, a thing of beauty and a wonder to behold.

I know love does not end with the passing of a loved one. It continues forever. I can say this, because I lost my son and know truly and deeply that love never ever dies.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 10:09 AM
p herrin said:

Dearest Tammy & Dani--
Words cannot begin to express my sorrow at your loss. May Heavenly Father & Jesus wrap their arms around you and give you comfort and peace. What a trooper you are! May you also feel the strong love and support of your ward family. We are here for you every step of the way!

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 10:10 AM
Carrie said:

Tammy,

I am so saddened at this news. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Thank you for sharing your experience. Thank you for letting us have a glimpse into the beautiful people you and Bryce are. Thank you for sharing your faith even through these struggles. Thank you for taking the time to leave a comment of encouragement on my friends Brendan and Julie's blog, even in the midst of all you have been facing.

Cancer is horrible and awful, but I know it cannot stop the soul and spirit of Bryce from living on with you all.

I wish many blessings on you and yours.

- Carrie

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 10:11 AM
Nikki said:

Tammy,

As I sit here Marina is humming 'Teach Me To Walk in the Light'. I think you've all taught us a more about how to do that. Thank you for being such a wonderful example of how a person should be and how we should all regard the people in our lives both family and strangers. I know I've taken a new outlook on many aspects of my life.

You will still continue to be in my prayers for a very long time. Wish I could be there to give you a hug.

This is a day I was hoping would never come for you and it's quite a shock especially with all of the HOPE! Your experience will continue to help MANY. This horrible cancer that Bryce had to suffer with is something that will not be in vain. You have made that possible.

Marina just asked me, "Is she (Tammy) on the street". I was grateful to tell her "No" because you have such a wonderful family you will never be on the street. I know you will be well taken care of.

I hope to make arrangements to be at the funeral. Please know I'm always here for you.

Lot of love my dear sweet friend. My heart aches for you.

Nikki

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 10:15 AM
Steff said:

We love you so much Tammy. I know you don't feel strong right now but you are. You are so amazing. I'll never forget how remarkable you were yesterday with Bryce's passing. You were the one that kept us strong at such a hard moment. I know Bryce never left that room. When he left his physical body, he was holding you, helping you to be strong. I know how much Bryce loves you. He'll never stop holding you and Dani. I pray that you'll always be able to feel of his presence. We are all better for having known B-Town. He definitely leaves behind an incredible story and legacy. He'll never be forgotten at our house. Nic and I can't stop talking about how great Bryce has always been and what great things he must be doing now. He doesn't have to be scared anymore or be sick anymore. I bet he's sitting on a cloud eating some chocolate peanut butter icecream right now and ENJOYING it! We love you so much! We are ALWAYS here for you ANY time, Any hour of the day or night. Love, Steff, Nic, Camryn & Brooklyn

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 10:24 AM
shawnee said:

Oh Tammy,
I'm so Sorry,
What utter heartache, and sweet joy you must feel right now. The love of your life is experiencing the deepest peace, and wishes the same for you and Dani. Your Bryce is the best, kindest guy and he will be with you always. Heavenly Father and your older brother are so aware of you right now...let them wrap their comforting arms around you
I love you dearly Tams, and pray earnestly for you . The world is a better place for knowing Bryce and you.
You have blessed our lives, now we are determined to pay it forward.
Love to you, Dani, and Bryce
Aunt Shawnee, Uncle Dave

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 10:25 AM
Rachel said:

I am so sorry for your loss. I can't even begin to fathom what you are going through. Praying for comfort and strength for you during this time.

You were both such an inspiration, and Bryce leaves an incredible legacy of strength, persistence and love for his family.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 10:26 AM
Tyler, Ann and Lucy said:

Tammy and Danika,
Our hearts are broken for you. We do not know what to say and anything we could come up with probably wouldn't help the pain much. Just know that our prayers continue to be with you. We are so sorry. Bryce will be missed-he is a wonderful man. We love you.
Love from Boston,
Tyler, Ann & Lucy

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 10:39 AM
Stepstool said:

Tammy,
I heard the news last night. I was told by my best friend that works at Bintz. I couldn't believe it. It makes me so sad. I got off the phone and told Maddi. She asked "WHY?"
As you said, we thought he was doing so well. We knelt down to say our nightly prayer and we both started crying. It was one of the hardest prayers to get through.
My Mom passed away from cancer 8 years ago and I didn't believe it then either. It's still hard for me to believe. But in a strange way, it was one of the most spiritual experiences I've ever had. I felt my mom leave too. It was a strong feeling. I knew where she was going and that gave me much peace. She treated everyone she came across with her special personality that made each person feel special. Much like Bryce did. Now "Doorway" has gone through a differnt kind of doorway to his Heavenly Father. And Heavenly Father is so proud of him. He is peaceful and happy and has no more suffering. Thank you for giving us the opportunity to visit him. I'm so glad I was able to hug him and tell him myself that I love him. It will be awesome to see him and my mom and many others, again. How thankful I am for that knowledge. We want you to know how thankful we are for your journal of Bryce's journey. You are such an inpiration. "Thank you". We Love You and Pray for You Every Day!
Love,
Stepstool
I LOVE YOU! DOORWAY

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 10:40 AM
Joel Grow said:

My dear sweet Tammy,
Words can't convey what bonnie and I have been feeling since we heard about Bryce's passing. We are so deeply sorry for your loss. You, Bryce, Dani, and the rest of your family have constantly been in our thoughts, words, and prayers since your news of Bryce's illness. I can't imagine what you are feeling at the moment and what a void that Bryce's departure has left in yours and Dani's life.
I want to thank you for taking some of the precious time you had left with him to post your story. It has helped me to better put things in perspective by being a better husband, father, and cherish the time that I have with bonnie and lydia. We thank you and Bryce for this wonderful gift.
We know that we are a forever family through the blessings of the Gospel of Jesus Christ just like you, Bryce, and Dani.

Joel

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 10:46 AM
Amy Jones said:

Tammy,

I am SO proud of you and Bryce!!! You fought a brave and valiant fight until the very end. So many lives have been changed for the better because of your willingness to share the most personal and intimate feelings of your hearts. My kids and I are so priveleged to have known Bryce. Please know that we will be here for you and Dani always--to help you, support you, love you--whatever you might need! I echo the words of the poem quoted earlier. God only takes the very best! Last night as Bria was crying she asked why Bryce, who was such a blessing in so many people's lives, had to die. I told her it was because he is one of Heavenly Father's most valiant spirits, and He needs Bryce's help in heaven. I have no doubt that Bryce has an amazing mission ahead of him. I also know that Bryce will always be with you and Dani, and I pray that you will be able to FEEL him near you often. It won't be long before you will all be back together FOREVER--cancer can NEVER kill that!! Until then, we will all be here to help you. I know you will make it through this, Tammy. You are one of the strongest people I know, and you and Bryce are still my heroes! The biggest ROCK STARS in the universe!!!!!!

Love always,

Amy

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 10:58 AM
Brendan said:

Tammy,

I received your comment on our blog just a few short days ago and was touched that you reached out to us. In fact, I had located your blog through Jessi a week or so previously while we were in the hospital for radiation. It was on a late evening where Julie was sleeping and I was surfing the web late at night trying to kill time and find a way to drift to sleep... I read your whole blog, but for some reason failed to comment.

Obviously, this latest post of yours has hit close to home for me and my heart bleeds for you and Danni.

It is eerie how closely our situations are... Young spouses, kids involved, our mottos (Julie and I always repeat how "We are winning against this cancer), blogs and an army of supporters out there including employers, family, friends and people we have never met.

I have often wondered, what my post will say *IF* we are not successful in our battle. I cry about it, it scares me and I quickly try and find something else to ponder. Your post was emotional, raw, beautiful, powerful and laced with love for your husband. I pray that if I need to find that strength, the Lord will help my fingers dance across the keyboard as eloquently as he has done for you.

Recently, I have been so busy caring for Julie and other things going on during this part of the year that I have lost my inspiration to blog. Luckily, my friend Brad has kept it going. Perhaps today, I will resume my updates.

As you stated in your post, you feel alone and I believe that you may honestly feel that way in the immediate. But know that you are not. You have a growing piece of Bryce always in your daughter and you are surrounded by family, friends and people lifting you in prayer.

If I can ever be of any comfort as someone who has walked in your shoes and lived the exact same battle (although I am still in the throws of it... we have now welcomed walkers, wheelchairs, potty seats, shower seats, shower heads on cords etc into our home)please feel free to reach out to me. Perhaps we can support each other as no one else can... that is my offer to you. You have my email and I check it daily. I will be happy to exchange phone numbers with you via that route as well.

May God hold you, Danni and family firmly in his grasp over the next several days as you prepare and attend what will assuredly be a beautiful and fitting service. I also pray that he walk with you in the months to come as you slowly gain your strength to persevere and raise your beautiful daughter as Bryce would wanted you to do I am sure.

God Bless and as stated, I would welcome the opportunity to speak with you when the time is right for you.

We will continue to carry on your mantra from Houston...

Together in "killing cancer",

Brendan Lyons

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 11:01 AM
Hilary said:

I'm so very sorry. My heart aches for you. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 11:07 AM
Eric said:

Tammy and Family,

We are so sorry that you have lost Bryce (physically) from your lives.

With Love

Eric Orchard & Family

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 11:30 AM
Troy Hanson said:

Tammy and Danika,

I am profoundly sad today. My heart aches for you and your family. I truly wish I had words that would comfort you at this very difficult time. Please know that you are in our thoughts and prayers and will continue to be.

Two weeks ago I attended the sealing of my niece Megan and her husband. As the sealer spoke I could only think about you and Bryce. He spoke about life eternal. Sealings go way beyond the bounds of death. He said if a spouse dies those left behind are sad, but it won't matter in the long run, sealings are eternal. You and Bryce are eternal companions, Bryce has earned his reward through his many trials and successes.

Please remember God loves you and your family. He will be there for you.

Troy

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 11:33 AM
Roni said:

I found out last night at work and my heart just sank. I was speechless. I read this posting at 0145 this morning. I am so sorry. I dont know what to say that will make this any better. Bryce is amazing example to us all. Tammy you are a great example too. We will continue to keep your family in our prayers as before. I love you!

Roni

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 11:46 AM
Jodi said:

Tammy, Danika and family ~

Yet, another internet follower of your blog. It is amazing to me the connections that the internet has in letting others into their lives.

I am a mother and a wife - and I am so sorry for your loss. Bryce was a true fighter and I am proud to have followed his fight!

Hugs from Oregon. ~ Jodi

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 11:50 AM
Andrea from Philly said:

Tammy,
I hope you find peace in knowing that you did everything you could possibly do for Bryce. You, his family and friends and the loving and caring you gave Bryce was a testament to what a great man he was ... that so many reached out to him, you and Dani. He was a true warrior and he did beat cancer in his own way. He is no longer suffering and has found peace. He is now the angel watching over you and Dani forever, his arms around you both.
God bless you and Dani. My prayers are with you.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 12:03 PM
Stacy said:

Dear Tammy,

I've never met you but do know your wonderful parents. Our hearts go out to you and embrace you during this difficult time and for the months and years ahead. Having lost my little daughter, I can promise you that Bryce will be close to you. He will send you messages of his love that will strengthen you. Look for the tender mercies of the Lord, and you will feel his loving embrace. I think Elder Russel M. Nelson said it perfectly, “...the only way to take sorrow out of is to take love out of life.” It is so obvious of the love that you and Bryce shared. Thank you for sharing your heart with the world. You and Bryce have been an instrument to touch many lives.

No pain that we suffer,
no trial that we experience is wasted.
It ministers to our education,
to the development of such qualities
as patience, faith, fortitude and humility.
All that we suffer and all that we endure,
especially when we endure it patiently,
builds up our character,
purifies our hearts,
expands our souls,
and makes us more tender and charitable,
more worthy to be called the children of God …
and it is through sorrow and suffering,
trial and tribulation,
that we gain the education that we came here to acquire
and which will make us more like
our Father and Mother
in Heaven.

-- Orson F. Whitney

Much love,

Stacy

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 12:08 PM
Nathan and Suzie said:

Tammy,
We were so sad to hear of your loss. We have prayed for you and Bryce every day since we learned of his cancer. Often our prayers were to give you both the strength to deal with this trial together. Also, that you could feel each other's love strongly each moment you had with each other. I believe these prayers were answered. We don't always understand God's will... and don't always want to agree with it either. I'm thankful we know He is a loving and all-powerful God. We continue to pray for you and Danica during this difficult time for you.

Nathan and Suzie

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 12:21 PM
Lee Wright (fellow BOB) said:

Tammy and the family. Our thoughts and prayers are with you at this time. Bryce was and is a great man and friend. Just know that we are all thinking about you at this time. May God bless you.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 12:39 PM
Michelle McLean said:

Tammy and Dani-

I was sick when I read your post. My heart aches for you and Dani and all of your family. I don't know you or Bryce but have followed your story. Please continue to post so I will know how you are doing. My prayers are with you.

Michelle McLean

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 12:47 PM
Holly G said:

I followed you and Bryce on MPIP, he was a true warrior to the end, as are you. I can only offer my sincere condolances to you, your daughter and your family.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 12:47 PM
Sally B. said:

Oh Tammy, what can I say? I wish I knew the right words. I'm hoping my tears may somehow ease your burden a little.

I do know that because of Heavenly Father and the Savior, all the best things in our lives last forever.

I know Bryce loves you and will watch over you. And I believe in the promise of an eternity where you stand side by side, learning, growing, laughing, and sharing. In that day, today’s pain will have no power to disturb your peace and endless companionship and joy.

The Lord knows your future and has already prepared blessings for you—shining little jewels that will let you know He is mindful of you and loves you and is watching over you and Dani and Bryce.

We love you too. We will keep praying for you. And I'll keep putting you and Dani on the prayer rolls.
All our love,
Marian and Sally

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 12:50 PM
Cousin Stacey Jepson said:

Tammy,

Thanks for being such a strong example to us through such a rough time. I admire your strength and determination through all of this. Just remember - you don't always have to be strong. You can cry too. I know it hurts and don't be afraid to show it. We love you and are grateful you were able to have the happiness and love from someone so wonderful even if it was but a moment. Count your blessing that you were able to have it - short as it was, some people never find that at all. You're a lucky one and even though it was a small moment on earth, he will be yours through eternity.

Love the Jepsons.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 12:55 PM
Daisha Johnson said:

Tammy- I'm so sad for your loss of sweet Bryce. Please know we continually pray for you and that you will have the comfort and guidance that you need. Stay strong and close to our Heavenly Father as he can bring the greatest comfort.
We Love You, Daisha & Cole Family

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 1:06 PM
Laura Tripp said:

Tammy and Dani,
praying for you both, for comfort, peace and love.
God be with you in this time of need.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 1:11 PM
April S. said:

Dear Tammy,
We have never met (looks like I am not the only one), and I don't remember how I found your blog, but I have been checking in on you guys for awhile now. I am a wife and a mother with a baby the same age and my heart just aches. I can see how much you love your husband and how much he loves you and your little daughter. I am so sorry for your loss but so happy that families are forever. I will be thinking of all three of you today and will put you in my prayers.
A friend, April

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 1:27 PM
lizzie.burton said:

i am so sorry. i don't know you and you don't know me, but you are in my prayers. may God be with you and give you strength, courage, and comfort.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 1:27 PM
Mary Smith said:

I do not think that there is anything I can say
that will comfort you and your family in this
painful time. Only know that I pray your hearts heal in time and you find some comfort in knowing Bryce is with God.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 1:44 PM
Suzan, Keith and Christopher Hallam said:

My dear Tammy and Dani,

I check you journal this morning and read your horrible news, I cried. Even though you and I haven't met in person, I feel as if I have known your family forever. My heart is broken for you and Dani. I told Keith and Christopher and they regret not getting to met ya'll in person. I share your grief. There is a hole in my heart for your family. You are will be in prayers today and forever. I know words won't help, but know you are loved and will be in our families heart forever. You and Bryce touched so many people and we will keep up the fight against this horrible disease.

Love always. Suzan, Keith and Christopher Hallam

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 1:48 PM
A Friend said:

Tammy-
Thank you for letting so many people into your personal journey. I am also one who you haven't met, but you have touched my life. I have been amazed at the strong bond of love you and your husband share. Nothing can take that away. May you and Bryce and Dani continue your love, and the rest of your story.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 1:50 PM
Jennifer said:

Tammy:

I never met you both however your story and strength has inspired me beyond words. I am so very sorry for your loss. You are an amazing human being and so is Bryce. God be with you.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 2:14 PM
April Williams said:

Tammy and Dani,

I am so sorry for your loss. I want you to know that Bryce is a miracle. Your story has affected SO many lives including my own. The dumb things in life that irritate me, I now look at as a blessing. I will at any cost spare my children, husband, and anyone I know the pain of melanoma by educating them on the effects of the sun. You will never know how many lives you two have affected. This is the miracle!
You and your sweet baby are in my prayers.

April Williams

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 2:15 PM
Eileen (from MPIP) said:

Tammy -- I was just sick to read this today. Know that even people you don't know in New Jersey are praying for you and your family. I wish you and your beautiful daughter peace during this terrible time. Many, many of us will be thinking of you.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 2:22 PM
Karen said:

My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family. May Heavenly Father put his arms around your family and give you comfort during this time. God Bless.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 2:32 PM
Anonymous said:

Tammy,
I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my husband Frank, 31 y/o, almost 2 months ago and I know the pain you are going through. It was less than a year for Frank to loose the battle for MM. I also posted in MPIP a lot and have seen your posts also.
You are so lucky to have your little daughter, she needs you more now. You will always have peace of Bryce.
Be strong, we can get through this.
Love and huggs,
Kristel, wife of Frank, stage IV, nov 06 (MPIP.org)


On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 2:53 PM
Chad and Melissa Cleverly said:

Tammy,

We have never met you, but Chad and I went to school with Bryce. I actually went to elementary school up to high school with Bryce, so I
have known him a long time. I just wanted you to know that we have been praying for your little family ever since we found out about the cancer. I just cried when I read this last post. I am so sorry for your loss. Even though I have never met you, I think you are such a wonderful person. I have really thought about the little things and cherished moments more dearly as I have read your blog. Thank you for sharing with the rest of us. You are in our prayers and you little Dani is such a sweetheart. I am so glad you got such precious pictures of her with her daddy. I am also so grateful for the knowlege of the Gospel. How could we ever cope without it. Please know that we are thinking of you, your famlies and your little Dani.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 3:03 PM
Jo Ann & Dennis Miles said:

Tammy,

We're so sorry for your loss. Our prayers continue to be with you and Dani. Be comforted to know that you will see him again someday.

Our thoughts are with you.

Jo Ann & Dennis Miles

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 3:07 PM
Nono Khosa said:

Tammy and Dani,
All words sound like such cliches,and I don't know how to express how sorry I am for your loss. You have lost Bryce physically but he will be with you forever. The love you shared and the battle that you both fought is remarkable and exemplary. Stay strong and God Bless you!

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 3:25 PM
Donna R (MPIP) said:

Tammy, this is heart-breaking and the worst of all pain. My thoughts and prayers are with you as you travel this difficult journey of grieving. Many of us are on this road with you. This is all so unfair. But do not doubt your loving caregiving and don't look back with guilt on any of your decisions. You were truly devoted to Bryce and his care, and you should take pride in that. Bryce was a strong and determined warrior, but melanoma is evil and doesn't play by any rules. Please try to take care of yourself, even though you may not want to -- or better yet, let your friends and family take care of you for a while. You will get your strength back but it takes time. I am so sorry that you are going through this nightmare.

Take care --
Donna R (mom to Jaime, melanoma angel March 2007)

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 3:32 PM
Adrianne Jenkins said:

Tammy-

I have no words. I wish I could cry some tears for you or take away some of your pain. I haven't cried like this in a while. I am so sorry that Bryce won't be with you for the next little bit. I just want you to know that I know he's watching you and sending you all the love and strength he can. Remember that he is whole now and that your life will be wonderful again soon. I pray that the hope you have been spreading to hundreds of people will stay with you.

I really never thought the day would come that I would check this site and see the words you had to write last night. I am so deeply sorry. I love you and will continue to pray for you and Dani. You truly are remarkable.

Adrianne

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 3:42 PM
Bethani Johnsen said:

Tammy!
My heart goes out to you and your sweet precious baby girl right now! I didn't get to know Bryce very well but from what I have read about him, he was such an amazing man! I want you to know that we are praying for you and love you!
May God bless you right now and comfort you in this time of sadness.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 3:50 PM
Kristi Lee said:

Tammy-

You, Bryce and Dani have blessed and continue to bless our family. There has been an increase of the spirit in our home the last 100 days as we have thought and prayed about your family and laughed and cried at your blog. Plus we are taking action and continuing the fight with cancer. Jono is going in on Monday to have some moles checked out. I've gone in already. It's been about 7 years since I have visited a tanning booth, so I've been good for awhile. But I have two little girls and they will not be allowed to visit a tanning booth while they are living under my roof (although once they become teenagers, I may need you to pay them a visit).

Someone said it in an earlier comment, but Bryce really is your angel now watching over you and Dani, especially during the next few months. The veil is thin at times and you will experience the reality of that.

Our prayers are with you right now. We pray that the Lord will eventually heal the pain and aching in your heart. We pray that you will understand that there are many who are grieving with you. We pray that you will know that you will see Bryce again and what a sweet reunion that will be. We pray for sweet Dani to know of the good man that her dad is.

We love you-
Kristi L.


On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 3:53 PM
Maegan Hanks said:

In 100 DAYS he touched us all. We went from acquaintances or strangers to fighting his same fight. We are all changed for the better from these last 100 days. Thank you for sharing part of Bryce with all of us. We are sad for your loss but have comfort in knowing that eternity lies ahead. The prayers and hopes for your family are not stopping. You will need the loving arms of God with you to help you during these next 100 days and beyond, because Bryce will be missed. Our deepest sympathies to all who knew and loved Bryce Brown.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 4:03 PM
Kory & Mandy Willis said:

We are sorry for loss. We are thinking and praying for you and your families.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 4:21 PM
Barbara Stevens said:

Tammy,

You are so loved. Heavenly Father and his angels are surrounding you and buoying you up.

Dani will know that her daddy fought for every breath to be with her. And he will watch over both of you. You are still his stewardship and knowing how hard he fights, he will make sure that he sees both of you through this life. When you don't have the strength to pray, you will have legions praying for you.

Bryce is a good man. He was strong for you even until the end so you wouldn't crumble.... so all of us wouldn't crumble...

Rachelle and Rebecca love him very much. And they love you and Dani. You have touched them in a way that will profoundly affect their lives and they will understand the plan of happiness on a deeper level.

Play with Dani and be with your family, and don't worry about anything else for a while.

I look forward to seeing you, Dani, and Bryce on Tuesday. He has a gentle, kind spirit.

100 days....what were all the things he accomplished in 100 days??? Some things can never be measured. His accomplishments continue beyond the grave. Many have lived a 100 years and not touched others as profoundly as he did in that 100 days. May we all help others as much as Bryce did in that short time.

Love,
Barbara

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 4:26 PM
Michael Hanson said:

Tammy, Danika and Brown Family,
I dont know what to say, like many others, but i do know that im spiritually touched when i read your posts. Especially this one with the outpouring of love from all of the posters. I love Roger's (Bryces Dad) post. The "Articles of Faith" are our foundation to spiritual security. They have been around for a long time, so they are pretty sturdy. I have seen it in my life and in many others...just remember those guidelines and comfort will come no matter what, i promise.
I cant comprehend the intense emotions you and your family are experiencing right now. All i know is that its something that you havent experienced. My prayers and thoughts are always with you. Many tears have been shed by family, friends, and people you have never met (including students in my Communications class at Salt Lake Community Colege who are now VERY well aware of your story) all for the same purpose. You've impacted ALL of our lives. Stay strong and keep an eternal perspective. We love you

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 4:37 PM
Pam said:

I am very sorry for your loss. I've followed your blog, and you're family touched my heart. Your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 4:53 PM
Elaine Miles said:

Tammy and Dani,

I was out of town (and out of cell range) this week and just found out about Bryce this afternoon. My heart aches for you. Bryce put up a good fight, and while we all hoped for a different outcome, we know that he is in a better place now. I look forward to being able to put my arms around you and to holding Dani tight on Tuesday. Our prayers will continue to be with you always.

Aunt Elaine

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 5:09 PM
Holly Boyd said:

Dear Tammy,

My heart aches for you. I've been so impressed with your strength and faith. I understand your pain to some degree. From my own personal experience with my father I know Bryce is still with you and will be a guiding light for you on many occasions. I am so sorry for you what you are going through, it sincerely makes me so very sad. Even so, life and death are intriguing miracles.

God loves you! I love you!

Holly Boyd

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 5:12 PM
Jamie Bailey said:

Tammy,

I have not posted yet, but have been keeping up with your family through your writings. I don't know what to say... You have been such a strength and source of inspiration to so many people throughout your journey. You have made me want to live my life better and fuller. I wish I could do something to take away your pain. You have been in my prayers constantly and will continue to be. You are an amazing person and Dani is so lucky to have you and Bryce as parents. I know it's been said, but know that Bryce is still with you both. He will be with you as you continue along your journey and he will be with Dani as she grows. I pray that you still feel him with you and that you also feel the love of Heavenly Father. He will continue to lift and build up your spirit. Your wonderful family will one day be whole and be together once again. I am so sorry that you are going through this. Know that you are loved...

Jamie Bailey

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 5:25 PM
Michelle Cowley said:

Tammy & Dani,
Our thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family. Bryce was a wonderful person and we loved working with him here at Mrs. Fields. He made our jobs so much easier. He was also so helpful with our franchisees. We were lucky to have such a great guy working with us. We will miss him at our golf tournaments and conventions but know he will be with us in spirit. Thanks for sharing so much of yourself with everyone.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 5:35 PM
Linda said:

Tammy,
I am so sorry for your loss, both you and Bryce fought so hard to beat this horrible disease. Hold onto the beautiful memories that the two of you have made for yourself and Dani. Bryce will continue to be around you in memories and in a spiritual presence.
Linda (from MPIP)

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 5:44 PM
Sharron said:

Tammy,

I am so very sorry. What a courageous and valiant fight Bryce, with your help, put up. Bryce must have been grateful to have had more time with his family. I admire you both so much. I have you and your daughter in my thoughts and will continue to think of you daily.

Sharron

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 6:10 PM
Kathie Walker (Reed Cowan's Sister) said:

Tammy,

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your beautiful daughter at this very difficult time. Your courage and strength have been such an inspiration to so many! May God bless you and Dani until you both reunite with Bryce again.

Kathie Walker

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 6:16 PM
Teri Leeper-Blue said:

Tammy: 100 days. 100 days of Bryce and you and Dani changing the world, and changing all of us. Just like the 84 days that my son's beautiful wife Wemkea and he and their sweet baby girl Josslyn changed the world. Days and lives measured by sunrises and sunsets, by victories and anguish, but most importantly by love. All of you changed the world with your undeniably profound love and commitment. You and Dani and everyone who loved Bryce is in my prayers and my thoughts. May Heavenly Father sustain you always.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 6:19 PM
Lori Johnson said:

Dear Tammy,

My deepest sympathy to you and Dani. My heart goes out to you. I wish I could be there to give you a big hug and help comfort you. Have your Mom give you a big hug for me.

You are a tremendous individual and example to all of us Tammy.

Also remember that we all love you and that Heavenly Father is watching over you and Dani.

I wish I could come to the funeral, but unfortunately I will not be able to. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.

My the Lord's choicest blessings be with you and your family.

Love,
Lori Johnson


On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 6:42 PM
PC said:

So sorry for your loss.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 6:47 PM
Jenny said:

Once again, you do not know me but I have been following your blog. I am truly sorry for the pain and saddness you are experiencing. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I am glad Bryce is through suffering, but I am sorry yours will still be there. Good luck to you and your daughter. You will pull through with the help of the Lord.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 6:53 PM
Candice said:

I am so sorry!! You don't know me, but I just wanted to express my condolences and let you know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers!

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 7:01 PM
Kim from Texas said:

We've never met but I have been checking your blog everyday and sending up prayers for you, your family and for Bryce. I admire all of you, especially Bryce for his courage and his brave fight. God Bless you and your families and sweet Dani. We'll continue to pray and are so sorry for your loss.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 7:02 PM
Anonymous said:

Brown Family,
If everyone that has posted today(119 posts @ this time) tells two people who tell 2 people,etc about Bryce and the danger of Melanoma we CAN kill cancer. Tammy, your wonderful spirit has made me a better mother and a better wife to my husband. We will remember Bryce and his strengh always as we wage holly war on my husbands battle with this disgusting melasuckanoma. In Bryces memory we will all continue to fight! Thank you for sharing your life.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 7:12 PM
Erin (from the Halley Fam in Maryville) said:

I am so sorry for your loss. I have and will continue to pray for your family. Tammy, What a selfless gift to give completely of yourself to another. A true example of your marital love and commitment is caring for each other in the darkest hours. You have given so selflessly to Bryce and nothing could compare to that gift you have blessed him with, and even though he has gone back into the arms of the Lord, your memories, his stares, his "I love you's", your beautiful pictures are all gifts that Bryce has left with you, memories you can share with Dani.

God Bless

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 7:19 PM
Lynne said:

Dear Brown Family,

If I can remember to breathe through my tears I may be able to express my love along with my sadness. Maybe it's too close to look at my thoughts right now, there only seems to deep seeded pain and loss inside right now. I know where Bryce is, I know God is a kind and loving God, but today the hard part of losing Bryce demands to be heard. I know that my grief is so small compared to each of yours and your pain adds to my heartache. My prayer is for angels to attend and strengthen you. In the days to come I am sure we each will find a sweet comfort in the blessings of our Heavenly Father's Plan, but today my family sorrows at your great loss. We love each of you!

Paul, Lynne, Madison, Abby, Bryant and Lizzy

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 9:12 PM
Jerd said:

I've just spent a half hour trying to think of something to say and it's just not coming. Some things just don't seem right. I'm glad Bryce is at peace and I hope you can find peace with time. Cancer can never take the memories we all have of Bryce. I'll always remember the late night talks when I had struggles, the late night talks when he had struggles. You know more than any of us how caring of a person he is. He is a great man, he overcame things in life that most don't recover from. I'm so proud of him and I know he loved you so much. I'm grateful that I can call him my friend.

Jerd

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 9:15 PM
deb in seattle said:

And can it be
that in a world so full and busy,
the loss of one creature
makes a void in any heart,
so wide and deep that nothing
but the width and depth of eternity
can fill it up!
-Charles Dickens

I cannot imagine the void you must feel at the loss of your precious husband and father. Know that you are thought of and prayed for across the country by those you have never met, but touched with your journey.

Deb

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 9:27 PM
Diana (aka CatLvrBBW MPIP) said:

Tammy,
I am so sorry for your family's loss. As a melanoma survivor and a very lucky one due to early detection, I cry for all those we have lost, and continue to work to get rid of this disease. Don't forget you have many friends at MPIP when you need someone through the next tough days. Hold your family close to you and know that prayers are headed your way.

Diana

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 9:37 PM
Ashlan said:

Our hearts are breaking for you righ now, I can't belive how incredibly strong you have been for yourself and Danika this far. Tammy you are such an example ot all of us as Bryce has been. As I watched every movement Danny made on Wednesday It made me come to an understanding of how lucky you are to have her as a legacy of Bryce, that bright smile, laughter and many more qualities of her daddy, that he is not only with you in spirit, but through her. I could see your sadness and loss in your eyes tonight, take it one step and one day at a time. You are an incredible mother, and friend. I know you have an incredible support of family to help you through this time of need. I hope you will continue to post on here and keep us updated on you and Danny, so we can continue to "Kill Cancer" for Bryce. We love you greatly.

Nick, Ashlan, Kennadee and Ryker

p.s. Tammy Ryker has spoken for Danika, those two loved giving kisses to eachother~

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 9:45 PM
Andrea & Jared Walkenhorst said:

Tammy & Dani,
Just like many others the news was taken hard in our little family, and we are so sorry for your loss. I want to thank you for educating us about this terrible illness as well as the importance of family. You are an inspiring and beautiful person and I hope that in life challenges I may have an ounce of your strength. You, Dani, and the rest of the Brown family are in our prayers and we hope that you may find peace. May God bless you all
Andrea and Jared

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 10:04 PM
Wendy Hanson said:

Dear Tammy and Dani,

I just wanted to let you know how sorry I am for your loss. Bryce is a wonderful man and he has made a major impact on those of us who are left behind. The Lord only takes those who are needed on the other side. Apparently he has a greater mission to fulfill for our Father in Heaven. I have no doubt that he will continue to watch over you and Dani. You have an eternal bond that nothing can ever take away. I am reminded of a talk that Elder Nelson gave on Death and it had a significant impact on my thoughts as I recently lost my sister to Melanoma. Here is part of what he said and I hope that it will bring you some comfort. "Mourning - Irrespective of age, we mourn for those loved and lost. Mourning is one of the deepest expressions of pure love. It is a natural response in complete accord with divine commandment: “Thou shalt live together in love, insomuch that thou shalt weep for the loss of them that die.” (D&C 42:45.) Moreover, we can’t fully appreciate joyful reunions later without tearful separations now. The only way to take sorrow out of death is to take love out of life."

We love you and we pray that the comforter will continue to be with you and your family. Blanketing you with the warmth and love and healing that only the Holy Spirit can do. We are so blessed to have the gospel in our lives to know this is only a brief separation and you will be with Bryce again. You are in our prayers! Love, Wendy & Troy Hanson Family

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 10:24 PM
Marisa (Benson) Bills said:

Tammy,
I was so sad to read today's information...it caught me so off guard. You have shared so much of yourself with so many people and we all feel like part of your family. Thank you for your wonderful journal of your experiences. You are amazing in how you have taught us all in the midst of your own trials. I would only hope I could be like that if I were in your situation. I wish I could be at the funeral to honor such a special person and family. I am so sorry and I will keep your sweet family in my prayers.
Love, Marisa

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 10:27 PM
Richard LeVitre said:

Thank you for the priviledge of visiting you briefly and doing something "hands-on". I am so amazed at the strength and courage both you, Bryce, and your families have shown during the "100 days"! Bryce has "fought the good fight, kept the faith, and finished his course". Thank you for keeping everyone informed with insight into the fight, you are a great example to us all, Tammy! You can fight on with Bryce eternally yours - he is just "in another room". Love, Ann LeVitre

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 10:34 PM
Anonymous said:

Bryce has escaped from the burning car. I don't cry for those who die but I weep for those left behind. Tammy and Dani you are in my prayers forever. Melanoma doesn't play fair.

Peace...
Just another worn out warrior in this god-aweful battle called cancer.

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 10:46 PM
Jenny G. said:

Tam- I am so sorry to hear about Bryce. I pray he has finally found some peace and comfort. He is no longer in any pain and can be free to watch over you and your beautiful daughter. I know our Heavenly Father loves all of us. He is there when you need him and I know he is watching over you. We love you so,so much and we are all with you in this hard time. You fought an amazing fight and I know Bryces legacy will continue. Me and my children will stay out of the sun and will never see the inside of a tanning bed-Promise! Love You!!!!!!!! Jenny

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 11:06 PM
Uncle Kory and Aunt Diane said:

Dear Tammy and Dani,

We were so sad to hear of Bryce's passing and just want you to know that we have been thinking and praying for you everyday since this whole ordeal began. Especially at this painful time, we have been offering up extra prayers and comfort for you. Even though we didn't get to know Bryce as personally as we would have liked, due to our overseas life, we feel that we have come to know him through reading your blog. It has been such an inspriation to Kory and I, and apparently to MANY other people who have been reading it. We have seen such an amazing amount of spiritual growth and wisdom in you during these past few months of challenge and trial and deep, deep love. The Lord does not give us anything he knows we cannot handle. He knew you would be strong enough to care for one of his beloved sons through this difficult ordeal. The great part about this, as so many have already stated, is that we know that this life is not the end. Bryce will be watching over you and Dani and will be waiting with open arms to greet you when that day comes. Families are Forever....what greater knowledge can we have than this. One of my favorite hymns is, "Oh, What Songs of the Heart", which talks about when we will meet our loved one's again who have passed on before us...the second verse says, "To our rapture and bliss there's no song can express, we will shout, we will sing o'er and o'er, As we greet with a kiss, and with joy we caress all our loved ones that passed on before; As we greet with a kiss, in our rapture and bliss, all our loved ones that pased on before".
We love you Tammy, and will continue to pray for you and Dani during these next months of sadness and lonliness. However, we know that you have a great support system in your family and friends, which will help to ease the pain somewhat. You're a fighter and you've been fighting a great fight for Bryce, but now it's time for you to breathe and rest and let other's help and care for you for a little while. You did a valiant job in caring for your beloved Bryce. He will always love you for it.


T

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 11:10 PM
Kory & Diane Sellers said:

Sorry Tammy, I must have accidentally hit the submit button before I was done writing my message. Just wanted to end with how much we love you and are praying for you daily.

Uncle Kory and Aunt Diane
(your China relatives)

On Friday, October 26, 2007 at 11:17 PM
Sue Benson said:

Like many others I don't know you all very well, but my first order of the day (and many other times during the day) is to check this incredible blog. What a blessing you have been Tammy to so many of us. We feel like we are a part of your family's life and because of the wonderful spirit of giving and caring that you have extended it has made us want to be better people. For this I heartily express my love and thanks.
I have shed many tears today with the news of Bryce's passing, he has graduated to a higher place, and I know like you that you will be together again. I also know that you will feel him near you over and over again, watching and caring for you and Dani. This will be a great comfort to you now and in the years to come. May I offer you my love and prayers, Bryce was a terrific fighter as well as a tender husband and father, I wish I could have met him. Thanks Tammy for helping us all feel like he is our son, brother and friend. You and Dani will continue to be in my prayers. As Willa Cather said: "Where there is great love there are always miracles." You are an exampe of great love to all and because of this I believe you have seen many miracles and I'm sure you will be privileged to witness many more.
Thank you Tammy, may God bless you and your family!

On Saturday, October 27, 2007 at 12:35 AM
Nancy & Greg said:

Dear Tammy, Browns and family: We are so sorry to receive the news about Bryce's passing. We had just received word prior to a visit we had planned to the Garden Tomb here in Jerusalem. While we would wish to be with you during these difficult days, our visit there reaffirmed our knowledge that there is more to life than this earth and that Bryce lives on. Someday you will be reunited with him with his body made whole. Our love and prayers continue to be with all of you, and we will see you upon our return. Nancy and Greg.

On Saturday, October 27, 2007 at 7:18 AM
cari said:

Tammy,
I had just recently found your blog through Jessi's those photos moved me. I read your whole blog that same day. I am so sorry for your loss. You both are inspiring to me.
Thanks for sharing your story,
Cari

On Saturday, October 27, 2007 at 10:23 AM
Dana, Lori & Victoria said:

Tammy,

Words can not express the sadness we feel at the news of Byrce's passing. Our hearts ache for you and Danika. Thank you for selflessly letting us into such a personal time in your life as you and Bryce documented your journey through this terrible disease. In reading your journal we were continually reminded how important family is, and you two are the perfect expample of pure love.

Please know that as your journey takes yet another path you won't be alone in your travels, you have many family and friends that are willing to help you along the way.

Heavenly Father is mindful of you and all that you and your little Danika need; he loves and will always comfort you. Stay close to your Savior, he knows what you are going through and will be your greatest strength.

We will continue to keep your family in our thoughts and prayers.

Love,
Dana, Lori & Victoria

On Saturday, October 27, 2007 at 10:24 AM
Kirsten said:

Tammy, I also found your blog through Jessi's. I'm so sorry for your loss. Your husband was a brave man, and very lucky to have such a beautiful, positive, and loving wife. Thank you for sharing your story, it has put a new perspective on my own life. Blessings on you and yours.

On Saturday, October 27, 2007 at 11:00 AM
Paula and Jerry Swertfeger said:

Tammy,

Thank you for sharing your journey on this website. We have been reading, praying and marvelling at your wonderful family. We have been inspired to be even more active in the fight against cancer and have been spreading the word. You were born, I think, in September and my first child was born in November of 1975. Your Mom cam over and laid you on the sofa next to Brandon and we just gazed with love on our two babies. I think the last time I saw you was before you all moved to Baltimore. You would not remember me, but I remember you. Bryce will be with you always watching over you.
Love,
Paula and Jerry

"No man can pass into eternity, for he is already in it."--Farrar

You began it together and now it continues.

On Saturday, October 27, 2007 at 11:18 AM
Leslie Nakaya said:

Bryce was a gentle giant with a large heart. He was clever, funny, goofy, and very lovable. In looking at his serious expression in a few of the pictures that Jessi took of your family (which are beautiful by the way), I sensed that what he feared leaving behind in this life was his sweet little family. It is very clear that he loved you, Tami and Dani, and he didn't want to leave you behind. I wish he had made it to the wedding in Nov. and every other important milestone that he set his sights on. He will be sorely missed in this life. What a joyous reunion you have to look forward to!

You both have been strong warriors who've touched and taught and inspired many people, many of whom you do not know, which is apparent through the responses in this blog. Bryce's 100 days were a mission: a mission of love, of insight, and of helping us all gain perspective on our own lives. It was a successful mission in that regard, and his is a legacy that will continue on through those who knew him.

Tami, you are an incredible woman. I knew Bryce long ago, but I haven't met you. I feel like I know you through your posts, and like others I thank you for sharing some of the most intimate details of your life and feelings of your heart. It is only by writing as you have, that you have been able to further the cause and touch the hearts and lives of innumerable people. You have also left a wonderful diary of your journey for Dani, which will allow her to know her father and how many felt about him. She will know that she is loved and valued, and that her parents loved each other. I know how important this is because I was once a little girl who lost her father before she had the chance to know him.

Tami, you are so strong. I pray that your grieving hearts will heal in time. My heart aches for you and your loss. Your family will continue to be in our prayers.

Love, Leslie & Ryan Nakaya

On Saturday, October 27, 2007 at 1:35 PM
Cody and Julianna Johnson said:

Tammy and family-

I, like many others, have read your blog faithfully because we love and support you, Bryce and Dani. You have a gift of writing expressively that resonates to the core and provides a greater meaning to the life of Bryce that we celebrate. By sharing your most personal thoughts and views, I am most grateful for the perspective I have gained. I am sure I speak for many, but it is this percpective and meaning that has drawn thousands back each day. I hope you have a glimpse of the great impact this has had as we shared Bryces last days with you.

I have been in Amman, Jordan this past week setting up an event for First Lady Laura Bush to raise awareness of a new partnership collaberating cancer research between the Middle East and the US. At around the time she spoke, Bryce passed. Bryce was on my mind the whole time I was there and given the nature of the event, I am even more convinced his life has, and will, continue to have a large impact in cancer research. For selfish reasons, I am really sad I will not make it home in time for his funeral. Please know we are thinking of you, Dani, and your families and praying for your strength and peace.

With love,

Cody and Julianna Johnson

On Saturday, October 27, 2007 at 8:33 PM
Judy Cowan (Reed's Mom) said:

Sweet, Sweet Tammy,

We were so saddened to learn of your loss. I am so grateful that Reed was able to come when he did and I am grateful that I had a chance to visit with you for a brief moment and feel of your strength. You are an amazing person - a "warrior" as Reed put it, and you have been such an example.

You are in our prayers. Hold on to that beautiful little girl and know that one day you will be reunited as a family. I believe with all my heart that Bryce will be near to you and I pray you will find strength in "little signs" that come to you from such a giant of a man.

Judy Cowan

On Saturday, October 27, 2007 at 11:08 PM
m Williams said:

Dear Tammy, Jeen and Roger and Brown Family,
We were so saddened to hear of your terrible loss. We are praying for your family and hope you recieve comfort and strength from everyone's prayers. You are a remarkable family and very loved by many.
Thank you Tammy for sharing your experience through your incredible writing. Even though I have met you only a few times, I can tell what a stong spirit you have. You have gone through this with such courage and love. We have been touched by your love and devotion to Bryce.
To Jeen and Roger...we want you to know of our deepest sympathy and love. You are incredible parents to all of your children. We pray for you and your family.
May the Lord bless and strengthen you at this time. Love, M. Williams and family

On Saturday, October 27, 2007 at 11:15 PM
Jackie said:

Tammy, I am so, so sorry to hear about Bryce. You don't know me but I have been reading your story and I am amazed at your strength. I will be thinking of you and your family and praying for you.

On Saturday, October 27, 2007 at 11:33 PM
Wooz said:

What a sad time for anyone that ever knew Bryce Brown. Our lives have been illuminated since knowing him. I think of his genuine kindness he always shared with me and his unrelenting fight through difficult times in life. What lessons he has taught us. Lessons we must never forget. Tammy, thank you for allowing us to invade your home and spend time with Bryce, it is a treasure I will always draw from. You and Bryce have certainly raised the bar. As I have weathered death in my life I have drawn peace from the following prayer:

Native American Prayer

I give you this one thought to keep-
I am with you still - I do not sleep.

I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sunlight on rippened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.

When you awaken in the morning's hush,
I am the swift, uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight.

I am the soft stars that shine at night.

Do not think of me as gone -
I am with you still - in each new dawn.


Thank you Bryce, we will never forget the lessons you have taught us. Dani will know her Dad.

Wooz

On Monday, October 29, 2007 at 11:40 AM
Tom Folkman said:

Tammy, Dani Bryce and family,

My hearts ache for all of you, because of your willingness to share these experiences I now hug my wife children and grandchildren a little longer and a little tighter and with alot more appreciation to have one more day to live in this wonderful world.


Tom

On Tuesday, October 30, 2007 at 12:10 AM
Holly said:

Tammy,

I realized that I never posted a comment on this entry, and I think I need to. I have been so profoundly affected, and will forever be touched, by witnessing Bryce's passing. Although it was such a surreal experience at the time, I've never felt closer to the spirit, and I'm so thankful that you and Bryce were surrounded by your families during that time.

I'm still trying to make sense of all this, and I'm having a really hard time doing it. It all just seem so unfair, and I can't really understand a world without Bryce. It hurts my brain, and wrenches my heart. I am amazed at how strong you, and the Brown family, were when Bryce passed. Although it was such an incredible loss, I know the spirit of the Lord sustained us all at that moment. As Bishop B said, I am certain that special angels were there to accompany Bryce to his new existence. I am so glad that his spirit lingered long enough to touch you and manifest his incredible love for you as he departed. I know that he will never really leave you and Dani, and that fact gives me comfort. You both have an amazing guardian angel now.

Like Steff and Nic, Clark and I have spent a lot of time these past few days contemplating everything that has transpired, and what is now transpiring for Bryce. It is at once confusing, maddening, mind-boggling, and amazing. We will all miss Bryce so much, and there will always be a huge void in our family. I am so glad to know that Bryce will continue to live on, although not in the way we would like, and that you and Dani will someday be reunited with him and your family will be complete again. I love you and Dani so much, and will always be here for you.

Love,
Holly

On Tuesday, October 30, 2007 at 12:10 AM
Lanna said:

Tammy and family,
I found your family through Jessi Stringham's blog. Your story touches me in ways I can't begin to explain. May Heavenly Father give you the strength and courage to get through this difficult time. I add my prayers to those already echoed here.
Lanna

On Tuesday, October 30, 2007 at 3:36 PM
cath said:

So sorry to hear this news.

My prayers go out to you and your beautiful daughter.

On Thursday, November 1, 2007 at 11:34 PM
Molly Cash Davenport said:

Tammy,

What an incredible woman you must be! I'm only sorry that I have never met you. I was so shocked and saddened to hear about Bryce, and even more amazed at the strength you are showing. Thank you for sharing your experience through your blog; it certainly helps me to put things into perspective.

I went to high school with Bryce and I don't think there was anyone in our school that didn't know who he was. He was full of life and love and so easy to be around. He and I were part of the "overzealous club," and we always liked to laugh about that. It doesn't sound like he ever lost that overzealousness and passion for life, even during his last hours. Bryce was great for a hug in the hall and always seemed to be in a good mood. I'm grateful to have known him and know that his energetic personality will live on even though his body wasn't able to.

Please know that you and your sweet daughter are in our prayers and good luck in your valiant fight against such a horrible illness! May the Lord bless you in all your efforts, and continue to give you the peace you feel in knowing that you WILL see Bryce again!

Love always,
Molly Cash Davenport

On Monday, November 5, 2007 at 5:09 PM
Melanie said:

Tams: I, too, have not made a comment yet on this particular blog and as the years pass I want you to remember the deep love I have for you. It was so fun to know Bryce and to have him in our lives for those short years. Good thing we get him in our family forever!
The funeral was such a great and loving tribute to your husband...and you showed such remarkable poise. You amaze me! If I lost Jim I'm not sure I would do so well.
Sweet niece-o-mine...my eyes are still watering as I think of you. Your Dani is so precious! I hope I will be able to be a good aunt in both of your lives. Jim and I would truly love to have you come to Oregon soon and relax and let us smother you two with lovins.
My heart aches for the Brown family and for your family as I know how much they all loved him and how dearly he will be missed.
Thanks to all for the love and warmth we received as a family while there for the funeral. I love my family so much.
You have always held a special place in my heart, Tammy, and it will always be reserved for you. May you feel eternal arms wrapped around you...
Aunt Melanie

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