Changing Plans
We keep checking Bryce’s oxygen saturation every few minutes, hoping to see a number above 80. He is now on 10 liters of oxygen with CPAP, and not maintaining too well. If the chemo had worked at all, he’d be finishing round 3 today. Instead, he’s breathing shallowly and desperately, praying that tomorrow will bring the one thing that will extend his life here with us.
This turning point from “stable” to “whoa” happened last night, after Dani went to Bryce’s parents’ house for the night. We were hoping to get some good sleep, but instead we were up a lot, checking the monitors and praying together. Bryce noticed a definite change in his lung volume yesterday, which was a depressing reminder of how real this situation is. He is having a more difficult time with both inhaling and exhaling, and can’t seem to catch his breath. Last night, he ate some solid food (yay!) and then took a shower (double yay!), but he started vomiting and losing his strength while in the shower. (Reminder to self: clean the tub…) I helped him crawl into bed and we checked his saturation, which was hovering around 70% on 9.5 liters. I turned his machine up to 10, which is as high as it will go. I called Dad, who is in Jackson Hole (he just completed the LOTOJA bike race—congratulations!), who instructed me to call Dr. Voldemort. (Seriously, Dr. “V”—this is so much harder to type than your real name.) Dr. V said it was our decision—we could come in and have a scan and a bronchoscopy, or watch him over night at home and decide what to do in the morning. Bryce said it best, “I have a feeling if I were to go to the hospital, I would never come home again.” Dr. V agreed with that statement. We stayed home. His sats are in the low 80’s this morning, and Bryce doesn’t feel like going to the hospital. I don’t blame him. We’ll hang out at home today. With Dani gone for most of the day, I can stay in bed with Bryce and keep an eye on him.
The Las Vegas plan changed a few days ago, when we found out that we had to wait another week because of his radiation. That doctor wants Bryce to be four weeks out from any and all treatments. Our friend Christine had left me a message about her doctor in PA, saying we should call him and get his opinion. I gave the number to my Dad, who called the doctor and ran the situation by him. He said to just have an oncologist here in SLC administer the drugs, because we’re running out of time and Bryce doesn’t need to be a guinea pig right now. The plan now is to visit Dr. Casing tomorrow at noon and discuss starting the drugs ASAP. The new drugs are tyrosine kinase inhibitors, or TKI drugs. They have been successful at treating other cancers, but melanoma is fairly drug resistant. This is a shot in the dark. The most successful drug for melanoma is IL2, which Bryce isn’t stable enough to take.
Please pray for Bryce today. We’re scared and trying to remain calm. We’re praying too.
97 Comments So Far!
Tammy,
I am not sure what to say. I am going to makes some calls and get my bible study mom's together here at the house and get a prayer vigil going for you and Bryce. Please call me at any point if you need to!! Please tell Bryce I am thinking of him and praying for him and I admire him and I love him!!!
Hi Tammy,
I am very sorry to hear that Bryce has been in the dumps this weekend. Not that the other days aren't a little dumpy too. Everyone is praying for you and your family. I can't tell you how much everyone appreciates you and Bryce taking time to write with everything else you have going on. I really admire your straight forward approach to this disease. I know that you and Bryce are fully aware of the odds you face daily, but somehow you keep smiling and enjoying the little things around you that most people take for granted. I am so blessed to know you and to have the opportunity to learn what you are doing. We love and care about you. Hang in there!!!
Lauri
Dear Tammy and Bryce,
Prayers are going out several times daily that Bryce gets his miracle. You two have worked so hard together to keep your faith and hope going that it's inspirational to others. Even though I don't know you I think of you often throughout the day. My prayers truly are with you. Please hold on and never give up that hope.
Tammy,
I think you're the most amazing person I've ever known. Step aside, Dalai Lama... I hope you guys know how much we love you both and how much we're praying for you. I'm so moved by the strength and support that so many incredible people have shown to you both. It has really given me a renewed faith in humanity. I've been trying not to call you off the hook and show up too much at your house because I know you need time alone with Bryce and time to rest and rejuvenate, but I hope you know that I'm here for you whenever you need me. Please give my big teddy bear of a brother-in-law a big hug and kiss for us and tell him how much we love him. The Chamberlain family is pulling in any favors for you guys that we may have from up above! Continue to be strong!
Love,
Holly, Clark, & Ella
Tammy and Bryce,
My heart aches for you. I just pleaded with the Lord once again after reading your message. I pray that everyone will renew their prayer vigilence in your behalf. I still do and always will believe in miracles and the power of prayer. Thank you for keeping us up to date and showing us all how to be better spouses and parents,and also keeping a sense of humor through it all. I love you both very much and am very proud to be your aunt. Wendy
Tammy & Bryce,
I am so sorry to hear of these change of events. Please know that you remain in my prayers and in my heart and thoughts around the clock.
Congrats to your Dad for completing LOTOJA. My brother-in-law and friends rode also and I know it's quite an accomplishment. I'm sure with each hill he was thinking of you two and focusing on kicking cancers butt.
Please let me know if I can help in any way.
Jamie
"The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." Isaiah 40:28-31
I'm believing God for a miracle, Bryce!
Chris Campbell, E. Greenwich, RI
so sorry for all that is going on with such a nice persn
Bryce and Tammy, Beau gave a talk in church today on prayer, he wanted to share his experience of Bryce. The following is just part of the talk about Bryce. (he considers his his cousin, I guess because of Bryce's age) Here is his talk, "I have a cousin Bryce, who is very sick with cancer. About six weeks ago the doctors gave Bryce 1-5 days to live: he has cancer throughout his entire body. He is just 34 years old and has a six month old baby; he is fighting so hard to live against all odds. All there is for us to do, as a family, is to pray. You wonder what to pray for? I believe prays can bring miracles and I've prayed for that for Bryce. We want him to be healed and to be with us. I know that our prayers aren't always answered the way we want them to be, but I will continue to pray for Bryce. I will also try to place my faith in God and His plan for Bryce. I can also pray for comfort and peace for our entire family, especially Bryce's. And I KNOW that Heavenly Father will bless him in some way and will not leave him alone. Bryce is still fighting and I'm learning how important each day is, each prayer is needed and right now maybe it means just bringing another day, But I know how important that day is to Bryce. Tell Bryce thanks for helping turn our son into a young man through this dififcult experience.Tammy if you get a chance please read this to Bryce, we love you guys and I am so blessed to be a part of this family. Our prayers and love are with you, Laurie
bryce and tammy
the prayers are getting stronger for you,we need to find the miracle drug now.
A beatufiul prayer. I'll add this one to my own for you and your warrior family. As you go through all of this, you will truly find that no matter what, you are climbing closer to God "by the path of pain." I'm proud of your brave steps. Very proud.
Reed
"My God, I have never thanked Thee for my thorn. I have
thanked Thee a thousand times for my roses, but never once for my thorn. Teach me the glory of the cross I bear, teach me the value of my thorns. Show me that I have climbed to Thee by the path of pain. Show me that my tears have made a rainbow.- -George Matheson"
Hi Tammy,
I am your Aunt Shawnie's neighbor Mary. She has been sharing your story with me, and encouraged me to read your blog. My husband Tim knew your dad Dan, and your Aunt Shawnee in college. We lost him to cancer almost 4 years ago at the age of 48. I love it (in an over the top way) when anyone beats the "C" word, and while we do not know each other, please know that both you and your husband are in my prayers. Him, for a miracle, and you for strength in every way that you might need. When Tim was sick, I had a stake president who told me that it was important to ask for what we want when we pray. Please know that I'm asking. You are doing everything just right. Right medical care, right attitude, right perspective, and right place to turn when you are needing help. May God bless you and your little family! You can do this. Mary Garlock
Dear Bryce and Tammy,
Our family is praying for you.
Pam Wing
I have known Bryce since Kindergarten and as my first just started this past week, I want to wish Bryce to keep on fighting, I havn't seen you in a while but we have had some fun times Wendy and I were just talking about the trip we took when we were in the student ward at the U together. Keep it going Brown Ryce you are a winner and have beat this before and can now our prayers are with you.
Jason (Pete) and Gwen (Wendy) Peterson
Bryce and Tammy:
I first learned about you through prayer requests brought to us by Christine (Uporsky). Your love and courage are inspiring and I, too, am believing God for a miracle! Know that you are constantly being thought of and lifted up in prayer.
Jeremiah 29;11-12
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you."
May His love and peace continue to surround you both!!
In Him,
Kelli Mercurio
Stroudsburg, PA
Bryce and Tammy, I'm sending prayers your way. I think of you guys often and my friend Christine keeps me up date on how you are doing. -Julie-
Our prayers are with you. We're still hoping for that miracle. With all the prayers out there for Bryce, Heavenly Father knows how many people want Bryce to stay here with his beautiful family. Here's hoping Heavenly Father does too...
Much love,
Lindsay and Brock
Bryce and Tammy,
My thoughts and prayers are with you both at this very hard time in both of your lives. There are so many people, Bryce, that are aware of your condition. What a blessing it is to have such wonderful people around you. Everyday, I check to see how you are and what has transpired. Anywhere I go, especially in Bountiful, people have asked me if I know about you and then continue to pass on the word to pray. Prayer is the most powerful thing. You have many many people praying for you and your cute family. You guys are awesome and a great example of how a couple can endure through anything. We love you! Our prayers will continue for you all!
You guys are in my prayers. I am Stephen and Earlen's daughter and a good friend of steph's. I don't know either of you personaly but I love you and I will always pray for you!
Tammy and Bryce,
As I head up the stairs to lay a kiss on my 2 little angels who are fast asleep I check in one final time. Before I lay my head down I will get down on my knees and pray one more time today for the Lord to be with you guys. Bryce, ALL DAY I have sat at my compute and my scrapbook desk praying that the lord work a miracle on you like he did with me!!! Tammy I wish I could hop on a plane and be there with you to do whatever you need. Please know that I am just a phone call away!! I will be praying that tomorrow goes well. Bryce Know that I am with you!!!
Your friend,
Christine
I have been reading the blog after seeing your link on MPIP. My sister has melanoma. If this helps at all, my husband has severe asthma and although 70 - 80 are bad and breathing is very difficult and labored, my husband has made it through that many times.
Keep the faith. Prayers on the way.
Tammy & Bryce,
We've been gone for a week, but we never forgot your fight. Thank you for your blog! Your faith and love are powerful! So sorry Bryce is so fragile. We know the Lord loves you and is carrying you in this horrendous battle. We love you! Our prayers are with you always!!!
Bryce & Tammy,
Tammy, I have only met you briefly a few times, but have been so impressed with you each time we've met. It is easy to see what a kind and generous person you are. It is also easy to see how much Bryce loves you.
I am Jared Poulson's wife and Bryce has been one of my close friends since we were 12 years old in the 7th grade. I have so many great memories of you, Bryce! Bryce was my first boyfriend in Jr. High. We'd meet at the Bountiful High Football games and hold hands under the blankets. :) I went to my first party at Bryce's house and watched my first "horror" movie there. On the weekends when we had nothing to to, we'd all throw soggies at the cars driving up Lakeview Drive from the hill below Bryce's house. Then we'd get chased by all the high school kids. :) Bryce has always been one of the funnest people to be with and was always a support to me when I had my Haney heartaches and when I later had my Jared Poulson ones. :) I love you, Bryce! And Jared does also. We're praying for you, for Tammy, and for your family.
Tammy & Bryce--
I'm Amy's mom. I love you guys and please know that you are both in my prayers every day. Your courage and strength are amazing. I know the Lord can and will perform miracles--my little granddaughters are proof of that. He loves you so much. Hang in there and continue to turn your problems over to Him. He will do what's best for you guys. Have faith and know that you are loved by Him and by all of us.
Love, Patsy
Your whole family is always in my thoughts. Bryce, if I could give you some of my ability to breathe, I would do so.
Love,
Leslie
Bryce and Tammy...
I think about you both every day! Two of the most awesome people I have ever met, living in a nightmare. Bryce, your positive attitude and will to live is incredible! And Tammy, if more people were like you, this world would be so much better! The love that you show and your strength and determination is truly unbelievable!
Hi Tammy & Bryce,
My prayers are with you both and your family.
You are an example to people Tammy in all the things you are doing.
I know that many people here in Portland, OR are praying for your family too.
I check for your comments each day
and hope that a miracle has occurred.
Love,
Lori Johnson
Tammy and Bryce,
We pray for you daily and send you our love. I know we sure hug and kiss our 3 little kids more than ever, and that's a lot! Thanks Tammy for keeping us all up to date, your a wonderful woman. Hang in there Bryce you can do it!!!
Aloha, John, Brynnly, Caleb, Marissa, and Miles
Bryce and Tammy-
Hang in there! You're doing the right thing, and you clearly have the best medical advice and army of support on the planet. Don't ever second guess any of your decisions while fighting this monster. I think about you guys everyday. Carrie and I send our love, our hope, and our prayers. We want to rush in and be with you, but we think it's more important for you both to rest, gather your strength, and spend every possible moment together without distraction. As always, if you need anything from us just let us know. We love you very much!
-Dave
Tammy and Bryce,
You have lots of prayers and thoughts coming from Toronto Canada - I have been on the MIPP since May - my husband was dx'd stage iv then. I have followed your blog for awhile now. Take care,
Maureen & Geoff
Bryce, Tammy, and Family.......Again we are sending our prayers to you from North Dakota to give you strength and hope during such a difficult time.
Tammy - My wife and I have been following Bryce's struggle with this hideous disease. We so sorry your family has to battle this. But you're not alone. We first read about Bryce on MPIP (my wife has stage IIIB Melanoma). I know there are hundreds or more likely, thousands of people praying for you guys.
Our hearts and prays are with you,
Duke, husband to Darcy (IIIB, NED 25 months)
Tammy & Bryce,
Even though I don't know you personally, I am touched by your fight. I am a stage 3B patient who visits the MPIP BB.
Please know that many of us are praying for you during this difficult time.
Blessing to you and your lovely family.
Nancy D
Vacaville, CA
Bryce keep up the fight, you have such a beautiful family. My thoughts are with you all.
Heather, Colorado
Tammy and Bryce,
I was led to your website from the MPIP and I just wanted you to know that there is someone else out there who is praying for you.
Don't ever let anyone make you feel bad for trying everything that you can to keep Bryce here with you. Don't ever give up HOPE. This is a horrible disease but you are two very strong people who are willing to fight with all you've got.
My prayers are with you.
Liz Miles (Mom to Angel Michael 10/12/85-02/23/03)
Midland, GA
Dear Bryce and Tammy,
Matt and I are so impressed with the faith and strength you have had through all of this. Don't give up the fight. We pray for your family every night and know that you are being watched over. We love you!
Bryce And Tammy
You are both in my thoughts and prays every moment of of everyday.Tammy you are the greatest wife Bryce could ever have. I admire your strength and courage. The support you give Bryce is what will help him fight and become the 1%.This website is the greatest it helps not to keep having to bother family members on a daily bases to be asked the same questions over and over on Bryce's condtion.WE all miss Bryce here at work and look forward to his return.Bryce keep fighting!!! God knows you are the 1%.
Susan w
Dear Bryce and Tammy,
We continue to pray for you. The Saints in Ogden and Vernal have been added to those caring and praying for you both.
I just reread a favorite scripture. It seems to describe you both so well:
Be strong and of a good courage; be not afriad, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God is with thee withersoever thou goest. Joshua 1:9
We love you and Dani, too. You are in our thoughts and hearts and prayers.
Love,
Marian and Sally
Tammy and Bryce -
Stay strong you guys! Keep faith and know that there are so many people praying for you.
Bryce, Tammy and Dani you are all in my prayers!! I read your blog daily and it just breaks my heart! Bryce and Tammy your strength amazes me, keep up the fight! 1%
Love,
Cindy Flygare
Dear Tammy,
You, Bryce and your baby are all in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry that it doesn't look good right now and I will keep your family in my thoughts. As ever, Carver
Tammy and Bryce,
I worked with Bryce when I was at Mrs Fields. He is a great guy and I was floored when I got the news about him. Things like this are not supposed to happen to good people!!
You're both in my thoughts and prayers. I know you'll make it through this.
Take care and keep strong!
Eric
Praying for comfort, peace, love and healing. Bryce, hang in there, I know you have a will to live that is amazing and you inspire everyone. Tammy you are amazing.
Love to you both.
We are praing for you everyday. We love you guys.
Jamie, Gary, and Lucy
Bryce, Tammy and Family -
Our thoughts and prayers are with you. Your chronicles give us a renewed appreciation for how precious life is, how to find beauty and joy in the small things, and how fragile and unpredictabe life can be. Your efforts to warn others of the danger of excess time in the sun and failure to take proper precautions are not falling on deaf ears. Thank you for your inspiration. God bless you, every one.
Chad and Amy Nydegger
We pray for you constantly. Tammy, I love seeing you out walking with Dani. You have such an amazing perspective and balance all of this so well. Bryce, keep up the fight!
Bryce and Tammy..prayers are coming your way. I ask that God keep you close and to give you strength on this journey.
.".but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not grow faint" Is 40:31
"Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to an all-knowing God"
Corrie ten Boom
Blessings to all of you during this time of struggle. May God rest His hand upon you. Warmly, sue
Sweet Tammy and Bryce,
My hope is that the Lord will sustain you with all the energy and peace that this battle requires. I don't know if you remember, but one of my best friends died two years ago from MM. She was single with an only daughter of high school age. Her family knows Dan very well also. I am confident she is in the heavens as one of your guardian angels. It is so hard sometimes to be so far away and not have the opportunity and blessing to serve and hug you as I would wish. But I also know that this must be such a valued and sacred time that you have to spend together as a family. I'm so grateful that your Dad and Mom, Holly and Stef and their families, and Bryce's families are so close and love you all so much. The prayers, love and support coming to you from all over the globe must give you great comfort.
Tammy, I have always loved your spunky, independent spirit...I am sure the Lord knew it would serve you well at this time. You are strong and love that husband of yours so much and always have. You are so perfect for each other. I am so grateful that Bryce has been such a great example of a committed, faithful, loving husband. I know that our Savior is so very aware of you and wants to bless you in every way that He can. Bryce is a good man and will receive every reward.
Bryce and Tams, my heart is so full. You are teaching me great lessons each time you write. Hopefully,I will become a better person because of my associations with you. I only wish I had the words to express the feelings of my heart and the ability to take all this sorrow and pain away...but...
well, we know why that isn't possible.
I love you both so much. Hold each other for me.
Love, Aunt Melanie
My heart is breaking for your lovely family. I am praying for you. Peace.
Tammy,
Tried to call today and didn't get ya'll. Sorry to hear about the change of plans. More prayers coming you way.
www.kschallam.blogspot.com
Suzan
Bryce and Tammy,
I'm following your blog and staying hopeful. You two are my heroes! I wear my bracelet every day and add my thoughts and prayers to yours. Stay strong.
Nurse Stephenie from LDSH
Tammy and Bryce,
checking in to see how today went. I couldn't sleep a wink last night and was up till 4am thinking of you guys. I pray you were able to start the meds today Bryce!!
Peace and Love,
Christine Uporsky
Bryce and Tammy,
You guys are in my thoughts and prayers. I am praying for a miracle and they do happen. Hang in there and God will have to listen to all thousands of people who are joined together to pray for you. God bless you!
Dear Bryce,
You have had a tender place in my heart ever since I started cleaning your room way back in the 6th grade...I have called you friend almost longer than anyone else I know. Thank you for helping me survive Sunday School in the Lakeview Ward, for the crazy carpooling trips to Millcreek Jr. High, for your fabulous humor, for all of the fun during our days at BHS, for your warmth and genuineness, for sharing your wedding celebrations and beautiful romance with us, for your resilience, and for your courage.
I love you,
Bethany
I've been following your journey for a month or so now. Even though I don't know you, I feel as if I do. My friend Sally McWain told me about you and it made me want to keeping checking up on your and your situation. My heart goes out to your wonderful family and I'm hoping for the best possible outcome for you. Your site has really made me realize how important it is for me to be a badgering mother and mother-in-law concerning the sun AND my son's smoking.
Thank YOU for your concern for everyone else's well-being.
Bryce, Tammy, and Dani:
We here in Ohio are pulling for you and praying for you daily...more than daily. We have followed your blog and are in awe of your strength, faith, determination, and love! We love you all and know that angels are watching over you. HIS promises are sure! Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths."
Continue taking good care of each other!
Love,
Lyle, Melanie & Sean Clark
(Nic's family)
Hey Brown family! It sounds like things just got a whole lot worse. I think about you everyday. Miyo wants to come and do some pictures. I know that does not sound to fun but she does great work and I know you will love them! Keep up the blog I check it a few times a day. We Love you! Big hugs!!!! Jenny
Tammy,
Although we met for only a short time in Virginia at the AATB meeting, you were a hoot!!
My prayers go out to you and Bryce. You both are an inspiration to me and I admire your vibrant strength and your steadfast faith.
In my prayers,
Kim Hersperger
Tammy and Bryce, letting you know you are both in my thoughts and prayers. I was reading a quote and Bryce came to my mind. Take pride Bryce, take pride that you battle like a true warrior.
"In the darkest hour the soul is replentished and given strength to continue and endure"
I pray that oxygen flows through Bryce's lungs, that his body will stablize and that if IL-2 is the course that it will become an option.
Please know I hold you both, your family into every breath I take, asking for the miracle to come.
Keep heart Bryce, you are a true true warrior.
Healing hugs sent your way
Jane
Tammy and Bryce (see Bryce, I really DO exist!)-
I can only partially imagine what you are going thru. Once we found out what was wrong with Julie last year we knew she'd be relatively okay one day. You and Bryce, on the other hand...
I keep checking your blog every day hoping to hear good news. Kudos to Bryce for being such a fighter, and kudos to you, Tammy, for being such a loving and devoted wife/partner. I wish you both a happy ending to this sad saga. Keep your positive mental attitude. That alone can do miracles.
Duane and Family
Bryce,
Thank you for your living example of dignity in the worst of adversities. I will always look to how you are fighting this horrible disease with the greatest awe. Your fighting spirit has touched countless people and it has given me a wake up call to what I consider to be adversity. Your love for your family is evident in every breath you take.
My prayer is that you will be the 1% in beating cancer. But, I must say that you are already most certainly the 1% in how you have approached it, tackled it, and shown that you are no quitter. Your entire family must be so proud of how you have carried yourself. What great parents you must have.
Tammy already knew what an amazing person you are, but in time Dani will also come to know that for herself....and I hope you will be the one to tell her!
Bryce, there are so many people pulling for you, praying for you, and getting to know you a little through this blog. Keep up the good fight. We are here for you.
Love,
Barbara
Bryce, Tammy, and Dani:
I am praying for you and that God will provide the needed medical treatment for Bryce to sustain him and heal him. I post on MPIP and have walked this road with my husband Jim. Stay strong and face one day at a time. Let nothing stand in your way. Pray to God to remove all obstacles for his treatment.
Many, many are praying for you and your family.
Amy
Tammy and Bryce~
Hello you two. Once again, I am so impressed with your strength and spirit. I read your blog almost daily and I am amazed each time with your vigilance and bravery. Keep it up, the Lord is mindful of your little family...and you are so very loved...by so many.
Lovies,
Your distant Pseudo Aunt,
Kathleen
Our prayers are with you. God Bless!
Bryce and Tammy - you both are an inspiration to others - God is with you always ! ( Psalm 139 )
Thank you for sharing your experience with us. I plan on hugging my wife Jaclyn a bit longer and holding my daughters a bit tighter from now on. Be strong Bryce and Tammy... we're pulling for you and praying for you and your family.
Dan and Jaclyn
Tammy,
I don't know that we've ever met...I've been with IDS for about a year and took over as volunteer coordinator in May. We maybe met at my first coalition meeting? I heard about your husband's cancer the same day my husband's boss and friend passed away from melanoma back in July. Strange coincidence, eh? I'm not sure why I started following your blog...maybe because I've constantly nagged at my husband to wear sunscreen for the 18 years we've been married and I want to learn more about melanoma. Mostly I just really liked your writing style and you make me laugh. You make me cry too. This is such a compelling story to read. I think it's great you're maintaining your sense of humor during this gut wrenching ordeal. I wish I had some words of wisdom for you and Bryce. I don't. Anything I say would sound trite and cliched to you I'm sure. I think you two are doing everything right to get through this. You seem like such a perfect match for each other, maybe not exact in every way, but a perfect compliment to each other. We lost some close friends in a car accident last February. At the funeral for the mother, son and daughter someone spoke about how when the right two people marry it's like two melodies coming together to make a perfect harmony. It was a beautiful metaphor for marriage...the speaker told it all much more eloquently. Anyway, congratulations on finding each other. And while I've never dealt with this exact situation, I've been through enough crap in my life to guess how horrifying this is for you both. When my dad was sick with Alzheimer's and in and out of care centers every 2 months, I remember thinking, "I just can't wait until this is all over and I can look back years from now and say, 'Wow, that really sucked!!! I'm so glad it's over!!!'" Keep the faith and know that someday you'll be able to look back and be glad you made it through. Please know that you and Bryce have a lot of people out there rooting and praying for you, some that you don't even know. Keep the faith!
Hi Tammy!
I'm still keeping track of you! I am so impressed by your devotion and strength. I talked to your dad yesterday and I want you to know you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Your mom is my cousin (our mothers are sisters) and I have known your family for years. We have some things in common and when your life settles down a bit and ever want to talk, please feel free to call or write. I'd love to hear from you. You are a strong woman with a good man beside you and these blessings will help you throughout your life. I'm sure it's tough to maintain every minute of every day--you don't have to--there are others doing it with you. Hang in there!
Love,
Jolene Smith
Dear Bryce and Tammy,
I assume people are keeping your names in local temples but just in case I added your names to Salt Lake and Bountiful today as well as Cardston and Las Vegas.
Our hearts and prayers are with you and your families. I know Heavenly Father and the Savior love you and understand your hopes and fears. I know they watch over you always in all the challenges you are facing.
Our love to you both,
Marian and Sally
John and I were up super early this morning unable to sleep. We couldn't stop thinking about you and your parents! Even though we were with you a couple of times yesterday, words just don't come easy. We don't feel like we were able to let you two know how much we really love you Bryce and Tammy! We love your whole family!
Tammy- I wish I had an ounze of your spunk and half your strength serve the one you love! You are THE ULTIMATE wife, mother, daughter and freind!
Bryce- you are full of smiles and sheer will to fight! John and I LOVE how everything that you do has the intensity that only Bryce could have!
You are our heroes!
All our Love and Prayers,
John, Emily, Sam and Miles
Just wanted to let you know that I am thinking you and praying!!!
Dear Tammy & Bryce:
Healing and heartfelt thoughts coming from New Hampshire. I can't imagine what you are going thru. May God wrap you in his arms and comfort you.
Janice
Tammy and Bryce,
We love you and are inspired by your love and sacrifice for one another. We are praying. You're remarkable!
Bryce
hang in there buddy and keep
fighting if I could do anything for you or your family I would be there in a minute. My prayers are with all of you. Tammy I admire all your courage. I know this is really hard so just hang tight and we'll all keep praying for you miracles do happen.
love ya all
Karen
Bryce and Tammy-
Me and my husband Stephen just recently moved from the VV9 ward. Though I know that we don't know you well, I wanted to let you know we are praying for you. I'm glad this website is up so that I can see how things are going. Keep you spirits high! You are the 1%!!!
Joshua 1:9 - This scripture has always given me strength.
Bryce & Tammy,
There isn't a day that goes by that we don't think about you; as we come to work each day one of the first things we do is check on your progress, hoping that you will be the 1%. You are in our thoughts and prayers each day. Your strength and courage is inspiring to us as well as all who read about the battle you are fighting. We get so many calls everyday from people wanting us to pass on their support and well wishes, you are loved by many. We know that your faith is strong and that Heavenly Father is aware of you and your extended families. May He continue to comfort and strengthen you through this trial.
Love,
Dana, Lori & Victoria
Bryce and Tammy:
There's a song from the musical "Wicked" that's titled "For Good". The last words sung state, "because I knew you... I have been changed for good." That's how I feel - because I know you, even though I don't know you well, I have been changed for good.
I so appreciate your example of service to others and your help with ward and neighborhood events (think of Christmas and the 4th of July). I pray daily that you will have the strength and courage to deal with the consequences of this terrible illness you are facing.
My favorite scripture is John 14:27 and I turn to it frequently. "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."
Praying that you might have comfort and peace.
Love, Lori
P.S. here are the lyrics to the song from Wicked.
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend...
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a sky bird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
Because I knew you
I have been changed for good
And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for
But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share
And none of it seems to matter anymore
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a bird in the wood
Who can say if I've been
Changed for the better?
I do believe I have been
Changed for the better
And because I knew you...
Because I knew you...
Because I knew you...
I have been changed for good.
Bryce & Tammy,
I just wanted to let you know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. It breaks my heart to see people have to struggle and battle this way. Your courage and unwavering love and dedication to each other is an amazing example for all of us to learn from.
All of my best to you,
Angela
Tammy & Bryce,
You have constantly been in our thoughts and prayers. We love you very much. We feel badly that we are too far away to visit and take you out to dinner at Su Casa. Take care and know that you have support all the way from St. Louis.
love,
Alex & Trisa
I just wanted to let you know that I and my family and along with my church family will be praying for you. I know you are truly missed at work. I know this from the other end of Bintz. Hope you feel better soon.
Thanks for all your help in the past when I talked to you over the phone. I look forward to talking to you again soon.
In Christ,
Tim McGhee
TCBY
Atlanta, Ga.
Bryce and Tammy,
There is a prayer in my heart for you all the time that I am awake and I know there are a lot more prayers out there. With so many of us rooting for you guys, I don't think God even has a choice of not listening to us. He is Great and has done many miracles. There is another one on the way for you Bryce, just hang on there and it will happen. God Bless you both and little Dani.
Bryce & Tammy,
I have been following your blog through MPIP. Just wanted to let you know that prayers are being sent your way from Houston, Texas. Y'all have such a beautiful family!!
Tammy,
I'm here...just giving you space. I want to drop by again soon. I need a Dani fix! In the meantime, I'm praying for the three of you...and your families and think of you at least hourly. I LOVED the lyrics that Lori sent you. I am also changed for the better having known you and being able to share with you my feelings about my experiences the past 10 months... You may not feel it, but you are amazing and continue to be an example of strength and courage. I'm sure you're exhausted. Take care of yourself. You can't help Bryce if you get sick!! Please call if you need anything or I'll be in touch.
Love you guys...Sally Mc
Bryce and Tammy, Roger and Jeen We are thinking of you and praying. James and Cathy
Dear Bryce and Tammy,
You are in every prayer and in the yearnings of my heart. You've been added to the prayers of the Saints in Orlando Florida and Oklahoma City Oklahoma.
Love always,
Marian and Sally
Bryce & Tammy,
I pray for you to have peace and comfort during these difficult times. I have been following your blog through MPIP and you are truly an inspiration to all.
Hello Bryce & Tammy:
Just wanted to drop in and say Hi and to assure you that you are in everyone's prayers daily & probably several times each day! Each night when I go to work at the hospital I look up at the ceiling (like I can see into your room) & I say a prayer at that time for HOPE and COMFORT from this disease for each of you. Dani has an awesome Mother and Father who have strength beyond imagination! Bryce you keep fighting & when you get really really tired let Tammy know & she will fight even harder I am sure! Lots of love to all of you along with lots & lots of prayers! I want to know that 1% person and I want it to be you Bryce! Take care & know that you are loved by many and we need you to be here with us! Susan
I just heard of this blog and I appreciate Tammy's written updates and pictures. I've read it all. Dear, Dear friends, My LOVE and prayers are for each one of you. Miracles DO happen and I pray for one for Bryce. My Love to You,
Charlene
Hi there Bryce and Tammy,
I just wanted to finally write a quick note to let you both know that I have been following your blog and sending all the good energy I have your way. I don't know what words I could even offer you at this point because I'm sure that you have both heard more motivational and inspiring sayings than you possibly know what to do with. But I do want to wish you lots and lots peace, love, strength, and hope in the face of this difficult time.
With so much love,
Jeny Chipman
Mrs Fields Training
Bryce and family,
We have known you forever (since little league with the Orchards and Auernigs). It has been fun over the past few years to see you find love and start a family, and always fun to chat with you at Bintz. We are constantly thinking about you, and praying that you will have the strength to continue.
Lots of Love,
Bryan and Christine Auernig
Denver, Colorado
Bryce and Tammy,
Praying hard everyday my friends. Remember Bryce "I can do all things through Christ". Keep saying that. Own it!!! Be like the little train "I think I can, I think I can, I know I can, I know I can".
I think I am playing with my 4 and 5 year old boys too much!! Bryce I am praying for you and Tammy and Dani every single day!!!
Tammy I sit by my phone and my phone sits by me if you need me it's within an arm's reach for me.
I love you both so dearly.
Nathan and Zachery LOVED listening to the CD you sent!!
Love and Hugs!!
Christine Uporsky
I am following your situation closely through this web site and from Dan and Marion in our car pool. I do keep you and your extended families in my prayers. Your struggle has helped put things into perspective for my brother who will die of heart failure in the next two weeks and my son-in-laws younger brother who died last thursday. One is through raising a family and the other had not begun. You are in the thick of it all and I hope and pray for a miracle for your little family. Please know how many people care about you guys and are pulling for you. Bless you !!
Barbara Tew
Bountiful Utah
After reading your blog I got off the computer to kiss my loving husband and checked on the children in bed and said a small prayer of thanks and ask for a blessing on your family. Thanks for sharing this trying time in your lives so we may all be grateful for what we have and not worry about the small stuff.
Bryce and Tammy,
Hopefully you remember me Bryce and I hope Tammy has at least heard my name. It's amazing how time is flying. Little Dani is freaking cute. What a sweetheart! Kiss that little face everyday!!!
It seems like yesterday that we were hitting each other with a T-square in Mr. Stauffer's photo class or going to Carmack's to get donuts. Oh how I miss those donuts! I miss you and hope to see you soon.
Bryce, you were there for me when you got my '78 Jimmy stuck above the B, and you were there to fall on me and smash a foam cup of Dr. Pepper in my lap. By the way sorry for throwing the drink at you!
Gina and I are hoping to come see you this Sunday.
Rock on Bryce and put a smile on that face!!!!
Love,
Cory, Gina, Easton (8), and Sierra (5)
Tammy and Bryce,
Once again I express my love for you both and my admiration for your valient fight. Your strength, attitudes and sacrifice are nothing short of miraculous. You will continue to have my prayers and support. I sincerely wish I could do more. Bishop B.
Your family is constantly in my prayers. I am sorry for the things you are having to experience. You both are heros, doing extraordinary things under extraordinary circumstances. May the Lord continue to give you strength to endure this trial. Love, Mimi B.
Bryce and Tammy,
I really admire the way you and your families are fighting this and I am praying that a miracle is heading Bryce's way.
Joe in Maryland
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Bryce and Tammy, I have a continuous prayer for you in my heart from morning until night and if I wake up during the night I am praying still. Bless you Christine, you are an angel. The miracle is on its way. Love you, -Rhonda